neonpink_smurf
22-10-05, 22:11
I didn't know where else to post this, for the past few weeks i've been doing ok, especially the last week even though i know i'm not entirely better, i really felt like i was on my way then today i was playing minesweeper on the computer and began to feel like i wasn't really here, i tried to ignore and went out into town and wandered the shops with my boyfriend, after a while it went but i still kept thinking about it. I couldn't get the fact that it happened out of my mind and ended up getting really upset as i felt that this anxiety was something that would never go because you can feel like its going and then it comes back, i know this is all part of recovery but saying that to myself doesn't help.. I also developed a new symptom thing a while ago, like i feel everything is unstable (e.g ground or seats!).. I went to friends house today too and i just couldn't fully relax the idea of this anxiety never left my mind, i'm back home now and i felt like i neeeded to write as i need some reassurance..My boyfriend has been really good trying to reassure me but he doesn't really know how i'm feeling and or understand how low i am right now