mum2four
23-10-05, 00:20
I dont have a set time of day that in have to do something like my son dose he has asperger's. I do how ever have ritual's and it just kinda came together this morning and I realised I have no motivation to do anything unless I see that i clear run to do it my way.
Example I dont want to go in to my kitchen right now unless
1- The moth is no longer in th sink(phobia0
2- I have to do the dishes before I can have brackfast because in want to sit at the table and do a my scrap booking.
3- I cant sit at the table till I clear it(scrapbooking last night) so then i cant have brack fast till I clear the table.
4- Then i have to get every thing ready before I cook it (bacon and egg's) if it's not cook in the right order I will get frustrated or confused and lost.
5- eat brackfast and then clear the table and wip it ect and set up the table again to do the scrap booking again.
All this seem to take to longer to figure out the right order to do things in acording my rules (the explanation I gave ect)
I cant watch tv in my room unless I make the bed or I wont be able to feel comfortable and/or concentrate and enjoy what i'm watching. When I think about all the house hold chores I do have rules for each one and I dont find the right order to do what need each that day then nothing seems to get done. Why do I do this I've never understood my lack of motivation to get up and just do the house hold chore when thay need doing or when I see that it need to be done. I have plan it or I can do it. If i can fit it into my PLAN then it wont get done. This is confusing to me I alway put it down to being lazy but I do really feel agaitated if If the plan don't fit together with harmony(exapmle why clear the table to eat brackfast only to reset it up again after brackfast) i'm stuggleing with that at the moment). I proberly eat in lounge room instead cause i cant handle sitiing at the table if it's not fully clean.
thanks
Example I dont want to go in to my kitchen right now unless
1- The moth is no longer in th sink(phobia0
2- I have to do the dishes before I can have brackfast because in want to sit at the table and do a my scrap booking.
3- I cant sit at the table till I clear it(scrapbooking last night) so then i cant have brack fast till I clear the table.
4- Then i have to get every thing ready before I cook it (bacon and egg's) if it's not cook in the right order I will get frustrated or confused and lost.
5- eat brackfast and then clear the table and wip it ect and set up the table again to do the scrap booking again.
All this seem to take to longer to figure out the right order to do things in acording my rules (the explanation I gave ect)
I cant watch tv in my room unless I make the bed or I wont be able to feel comfortable and/or concentrate and enjoy what i'm watching. When I think about all the house hold chores I do have rules for each one and I dont find the right order to do what need each that day then nothing seems to get done. Why do I do this I've never understood my lack of motivation to get up and just do the house hold chore when thay need doing or when I see that it need to be done. I have plan it or I can do it. If i can fit it into my PLAN then it wont get done. This is confusing to me I alway put it down to being lazy but I do really feel agaitated if If the plan don't fit together with harmony(exapmle why clear the table to eat brackfast only to reset it up again after brackfast) i'm stuggleing with that at the moment). I proberly eat in lounge room instead cause i cant handle sitiing at the table if it's not fully clean.
thanks