PixieL
16-09-09, 21:42
Pretty soon now i have to move house. I'm dreading it as i don't know how im going to cope with moving to a new county and my panic attacks are just awful right now. being agoraphobic i hardly ever go out and when i do its never far, i just don't know what to do. In a way its not a totally bad thing because this house dose hold alot of bad memorys for me but im scared so much of the move. I have problems with eating anyway, if i don't eat i panic that i will faint, so im worried that on the moving day i will have to have something to eat then be sick in the car as im so scared of cars. I've been scared of cars for about three years ever since i was in my dad's car and we almost had an accident and obviously i have to now be in a car for two hours and i don't know if i can cope with it. I was thinking of going before the move date and booking into a hotel and then my dad could come down after but i just don't know what to do. I'm working myself up so much, i just wish i didn't have this awful thing. i can't cope with all these feelings im having. it's now getting to the point where im thinking about killing myself before, so i don't have to move. it's so bad i dream about killing myself and keep thinking and planning it in my head. i get really strong urges to do it. i can't tell anyone about it, i wouldnt know what to say im not great with talking to people at the best of times let alone about this. please give me some advice on what to do