katie_x
17-09-09, 12:23
Hi, my names Katie and I've been suffering a lot from panic attacks. They only started just over 2 weeks ago when I went to Manchester with a few friends for a night out and a hotel stay. I felt unwell so went back to the hotel room, I was just drifting off to sleep and bang that was my first attack. It was the worst thing I've ever experienced, being far away from home and alone at the time. I thought I was dying so spent the whole night in A&E and completely struggled to manage the 4hr coach ride home.
Now I thought that was it, I totally thought it was a one off until last friday when my partner was out for the evening and bang another one out of nowhere. I had to get my dad to come and sit with me at 1am as my partner wasnt back. Although this time I knew I wasnt dying, but thought I was going mad. Both times suffering the panic attack hangover (?) the next few days. Since friday its all I can think about and have regular attacks, although not lasting hours or to the severity as before. From the moment i wake till i go to bed its on my mind.
An emergency dr on the following monday (not my regular doc I hasten to add) prescribed me 20mg of citalopram, which after seeing another doc since was a bad idea as 20mg is an extreame start dose. I only had the one tablet and since have researched the drug on the internet and realised its defo not for me. (took it monday night and its now thurs afternoon and the drug feels as if it is only just wearing off)
My mother went in to the doctors around my age for feeling 'a bit down in the dumps' and they gave her drug after drug and it became a downward spiral and she has been very ill over the last 20 years. My dad still blames the drugs and so I'd rather try anything but drugs at the moment to keep on top of this. I am now waiting for CBT but the doctor said it can take about a month for a place to become free, so until then I am going to have to wade through and cope.
I'm glad I've found this place as no1 around me seems to understand in the slightest and thinks its just a state of mind I can just get my head around. Basically 'get a grip'
Anyway hello to all :)
Now I thought that was it, I totally thought it was a one off until last friday when my partner was out for the evening and bang another one out of nowhere. I had to get my dad to come and sit with me at 1am as my partner wasnt back. Although this time I knew I wasnt dying, but thought I was going mad. Both times suffering the panic attack hangover (?) the next few days. Since friday its all I can think about and have regular attacks, although not lasting hours or to the severity as before. From the moment i wake till i go to bed its on my mind.
An emergency dr on the following monday (not my regular doc I hasten to add) prescribed me 20mg of citalopram, which after seeing another doc since was a bad idea as 20mg is an extreame start dose. I only had the one tablet and since have researched the drug on the internet and realised its defo not for me. (took it monday night and its now thurs afternoon and the drug feels as if it is only just wearing off)
My mother went in to the doctors around my age for feeling 'a bit down in the dumps' and they gave her drug after drug and it became a downward spiral and she has been very ill over the last 20 years. My dad still blames the drugs and so I'd rather try anything but drugs at the moment to keep on top of this. I am now waiting for CBT but the doctor said it can take about a month for a place to become free, so until then I am going to have to wade through and cope.
I'm glad I've found this place as no1 around me seems to understand in the slightest and thinks its just a state of mind I can just get my head around. Basically 'get a grip'
Anyway hello to all :)