LisaLisa
18-09-09, 09:27
Hello
I just need to hear from someone today because im so worried again today and getting little panic surges again.
I obsess over having hiv although i have had five tests and they have all been negative. My reason for worrying is that i read a medical journal on the internet about people with hiv getting cycsts in their salivary glands and them making the glands in their necks swell. Well when my HA started i checked all over my body for lumps and things and one of the things i found was a cycst in my salivary gland and a gland swollen under my chin and several tiny ones down sides of my neck. I got so scared that i went for a test and it was negative and i didnt believ it so in total i have been and had five - one of them was when i had my baby last year. I found the cyst thing and glands in 2007 and it still feels axactly the same but the journal said this could happen too. I told my dr about it and he gave me antibiotic but it didnt go and next time i went he said he could hardy feel it and never mnentioned it again.
So becuase my anxiety got so bad after my daughter was born I went to another dr and told her my worries and she felt it and said she was more concerned about my anxiety and that with five negative tests it certainly wasnt a presentation of hiv. I went back again and told her i was worried about it still and she said if she had been he would have sent me to a tumour clinic straight away. I got reffered for cbt by her for my anxiety although not specifically realting to my health but when i got my asswessment there they diagnosed me with GAD and HA and i am seeing a therapist there regularly.
Well today i am totally fixated on my glands and the cyst and am totally convinced that i have hiv and I feel like i hate myself and i am almost rotting away....im so scared can anyone help me please
Lisa
xxxxx
I just need to hear from someone today because im so worried again today and getting little panic surges again.
I obsess over having hiv although i have had five tests and they have all been negative. My reason for worrying is that i read a medical journal on the internet about people with hiv getting cycsts in their salivary glands and them making the glands in their necks swell. Well when my HA started i checked all over my body for lumps and things and one of the things i found was a cycst in my salivary gland and a gland swollen under my chin and several tiny ones down sides of my neck. I got so scared that i went for a test and it was negative and i didnt believ it so in total i have been and had five - one of them was when i had my baby last year. I found the cyst thing and glands in 2007 and it still feels axactly the same but the journal said this could happen too. I told my dr about it and he gave me antibiotic but it didnt go and next time i went he said he could hardy feel it and never mnentioned it again.
So becuase my anxiety got so bad after my daughter was born I went to another dr and told her my worries and she felt it and said she was more concerned about my anxiety and that with five negative tests it certainly wasnt a presentation of hiv. I went back again and told her i was worried about it still and she said if she had been he would have sent me to a tumour clinic straight away. I got reffered for cbt by her for my anxiety although not specifically realting to my health but when i got my asswessment there they diagnosed me with GAD and HA and i am seeing a therapist there regularly.
Well today i am totally fixated on my glands and the cyst and am totally convinced that i have hiv and I feel like i hate myself and i am almost rotting away....im so scared can anyone help me please
Lisa
xxxxx