sam23
18-09-09, 14:22
The more i fight it the worse it gets, tremors, sweating, heart racing, jumbled thoughts, same old same old.
Yet when i somehow manage to control it it jumps up at me outta nowhere giving me no choice but to fight and make things worse once again.
A vicious circle i just wish i could tire of, just to get some peace but when i sleep i wake to the same toll. Over and over again.
If i try and look for answers i go over the past which may kill it for a while but only to be replaced by a gloomy cloud of depression.
The depression can only be slaughtered by pain, physical pain which causes the anxiety to reign (rain?) over me again.
Yet when i somehow manage to control it it jumps up at me outta nowhere giving me no choice but to fight and make things worse once again.
A vicious circle i just wish i could tire of, just to get some peace but when i sleep i wake to the same toll. Over and over again.
If i try and look for answers i go over the past which may kill it for a while but only to be replaced by a gloomy cloud of depression.
The depression can only be slaughtered by pain, physical pain which causes the anxiety to reign (rain?) over me again.