littlewaternymph
18-09-09, 21:55
Hi,
A few years ago in my a-level year i spun into a downwards spiral of anxiety. It began by becoming obsessed with losing my mum, where i would check on her periodically throughout the night to check she was till breathing such was my terror of her not being there in the morning even though she is healthy and not that old. This then moved on to starting to panic about me, i was undergoing injections for a trip to china one of which had an extremely high allergy rate ( and i did indeed have a minor reaction to this) and so this was what i focused on.
However, as time went on it got worse and worse and i was feeling constantly terrified, even though i could still think rationally that there was nothing wrong i couldn't get the feeling of the extreme panic out of my chest. Eventually it got so i didn't sleep more than 2 hours in a night and i had to start taking beta blockers to get the panic under control.
After taking the medication and slowly weaning myself off my anxiety returned to a more normal level more a 5 than a 10. Over the past couple of years I've been attending university and every time I move from home to uni my anxiety flares up again lasting from a week of intense panic to longer bouts. Over the Christmas holidays of 08/09 it seemed like i;d hit a break through as i didn't panic at all.
This sadly has come to an end and I'm having a very bad patch again starting where my awful cycle of two years ago began and worrying about my mum. I'm also making it worse by worrying that it's going to happen again and I'll be plunged back into the terrible situation where i can't sleep and can barely function.
If anyone has some insight that would be great
Thanks :)
xxx
A few years ago in my a-level year i spun into a downwards spiral of anxiety. It began by becoming obsessed with losing my mum, where i would check on her periodically throughout the night to check she was till breathing such was my terror of her not being there in the morning even though she is healthy and not that old. This then moved on to starting to panic about me, i was undergoing injections for a trip to china one of which had an extremely high allergy rate ( and i did indeed have a minor reaction to this) and so this was what i focused on.
However, as time went on it got worse and worse and i was feeling constantly terrified, even though i could still think rationally that there was nothing wrong i couldn't get the feeling of the extreme panic out of my chest. Eventually it got so i didn't sleep more than 2 hours in a night and i had to start taking beta blockers to get the panic under control.
After taking the medication and slowly weaning myself off my anxiety returned to a more normal level more a 5 than a 10. Over the past couple of years I've been attending university and every time I move from home to uni my anxiety flares up again lasting from a week of intense panic to longer bouts. Over the Christmas holidays of 08/09 it seemed like i;d hit a break through as i didn't panic at all.
This sadly has come to an end and I'm having a very bad patch again starting where my awful cycle of two years ago began and worrying about my mum. I'm also making it worse by worrying that it's going to happen again and I'll be plunged back into the terrible situation where i can't sleep and can barely function.
If anyone has some insight that would be great
Thanks :)
xxx