AnxietyNow
20-09-09, 00:32
A little back story, I have always been a some what anxious person, but never in my life have I had any anxiety symptoms like the ones I am having now. It all started 4 weeks ago after the death of Spanish soccer player Dani Jarque. It happened while I was playing soccer I started to feel symptoms of dehydration, and I subconsciously began to panic, escalting my symptoms to a panic attack, which I had never had before, so I literaly thought I was going to die. I went to the ER, had an EKG, and everything checked out fine. I still wasn't feeling to good and about 4 days later had another panic attack, and I went to the ER once again. Got an MRI and another EKG, and everything checked out fine. So for a week I was feeling really relaxed and confident, knowing there wasn't anything wrong with me. Although I was still hesitant to push myself while playing soccer because of my fear of dying while playing. Then a couple days ago, I had a 15lb metal soccer post land on my head, and you guessed it, this incident again awoke my anxiety and fear of death, I was afraid of a brain bleed (still am), but everything checked out fine once again. I began feeling better, and thinking 'hey I survived, I should't worry about playing soccer, my heart is fine, I am healthy' but all this came to an end when my doctor found a heart murmur, when she was examining me. I thought maybe it was related to my anxiety, but being the hypochondriac I am, I went online and found out that anxiety doesn't cause heart murmurs. So now I am completely paranoid, and afraid of losing the thing I love most, soccer, because of my fear of heart problems which I actually have.
Anyways to get to my point, I was listening to other memeber's of my family's hearts, and they all seemed to make a thump-thump sound, while mine had the same rythm but it sounded more gushy,slooshy; don't know what words to use, LOL...but anyways its been really bothering me that I might never be able to exercise again or that I could die of sudden death if I do play, like the other soccer players. Do you guys think my anxiety could have caused something to sound like a heart murmur, because I was literay on the edge of having an anxiety attack while waiting for the doctor, and there is no history of heart problems in my family at all.
Anyways to get to my point, I was listening to other memeber's of my family's hearts, and they all seemed to make a thump-thump sound, while mine had the same rythm but it sounded more gushy,slooshy; don't know what words to use, LOL...but anyways its been really bothering me that I might never be able to exercise again or that I could die of sudden death if I do play, like the other soccer players. Do you guys think my anxiety could have caused something to sound like a heart murmur, because I was literay on the edge of having an anxiety attack while waiting for the doctor, and there is no history of heart problems in my family at all.