peggy27
22-09-09, 10:14
I've read lots of posts and realise that i'm not alone with how I feel.
I've had panic attacks a few times over the years, but its always settled down and kind of gone away on its own. I was in hospital about 20 months ago, for an operation, and since that day, panic has been with me, and the doctor told me I also have GAD.
I cant stand it. My mind is tired and worn out. I feel gulity about everything, I question everything, like does my partner really love me(i know that he does) but that alone can keep me awake worrying night after night. Every minor incident gets blown up out of proportion, like paying my phone bill. I was late paying it, and had made my mind up that i was going to prison. How crazy is that? But even now it feels like i'm right, and it could happen.:weep:
My thinking is all wrong. I had a few stressful years with divorce etc, and the guilt I carry round daily is killing me. I worry unecessarily about absolutely everything.
Every morning there it is, sitting on my chest as I wake up, and another long and difficult day begins.
I have an ongoing court issue with the father of my child (just contact) and thats weighing me down all day everyday. I worry about that constantly. Its nothing like i'm going to lose my child, but thats my worry.
I feel sick every day. My chest and stomach churn constantly.
I'm going to try ecitalopram again and see if I can get over the initial side effects.
Sorry i'm so negative, its just how I feel.
P x
I've had panic attacks a few times over the years, but its always settled down and kind of gone away on its own. I was in hospital about 20 months ago, for an operation, and since that day, panic has been with me, and the doctor told me I also have GAD.
I cant stand it. My mind is tired and worn out. I feel gulity about everything, I question everything, like does my partner really love me(i know that he does) but that alone can keep me awake worrying night after night. Every minor incident gets blown up out of proportion, like paying my phone bill. I was late paying it, and had made my mind up that i was going to prison. How crazy is that? But even now it feels like i'm right, and it could happen.:weep:
My thinking is all wrong. I had a few stressful years with divorce etc, and the guilt I carry round daily is killing me. I worry unecessarily about absolutely everything.
Every morning there it is, sitting on my chest as I wake up, and another long and difficult day begins.
I have an ongoing court issue with the father of my child (just contact) and thats weighing me down all day everyday. I worry about that constantly. Its nothing like i'm going to lose my child, but thats my worry.
I feel sick every day. My chest and stomach churn constantly.
I'm going to try ecitalopram again and see if I can get over the initial side effects.
Sorry i'm so negative, its just how I feel.
P x