Laura-Jane
28-10-05, 19:07
I thought I'd finally got over my panic attacks after being prescribed citalopram and diazepam. I've had a few "down" days over the last two weeks but overall I've been much better than before I had the medication until today!!!
I went shopping today already feeling a little hot due to my hormones being affected by the medication. But after an embarrassing moment involving my mum dropping a bottle of milk on the floor covering me with the "white stuff" in the process, I was tipped over the edge!!!
I suddenly felt as though everyone was crowding round me, with what felt like everyone in the store aiming for me. I then had two workers fussing round me giving me tissues to dry myself off, but all I wanted to do was run! I felt even hotter than I already was and really sick. I managed to keep calm and was able to carry on with the shopping which I was really pleased about. However, by the time I got to the checkouts I couldn't take it anymore and I had to go back to the car, leaving my mum in the shop to pay.
It never developed into one of my full attacks; thankfully I didn't have any of the tingling or numbness just the sickness, light-headedness and the feeling as though I was returning into my bubble which was bad enough. I had a cry afterwards, although I still don't know why!! I just came over all emotional!!
On the one side I'm feeling positive that I was able to control my attack to a certain extent and I didn't feel the need to have to take a diazepam. But I also feel disappointed that I had another one after what seems like a long time, I feel as though I still have a lot of work to do before I can get over my anxiety and these attacks once an for all!!! :(
Laura xxx
I went shopping today already feeling a little hot due to my hormones being affected by the medication. But after an embarrassing moment involving my mum dropping a bottle of milk on the floor covering me with the "white stuff" in the process, I was tipped over the edge!!!
I suddenly felt as though everyone was crowding round me, with what felt like everyone in the store aiming for me. I then had two workers fussing round me giving me tissues to dry myself off, but all I wanted to do was run! I felt even hotter than I already was and really sick. I managed to keep calm and was able to carry on with the shopping which I was really pleased about. However, by the time I got to the checkouts I couldn't take it anymore and I had to go back to the car, leaving my mum in the shop to pay.
It never developed into one of my full attacks; thankfully I didn't have any of the tingling or numbness just the sickness, light-headedness and the feeling as though I was returning into my bubble which was bad enough. I had a cry afterwards, although I still don't know why!! I just came over all emotional!!
On the one side I'm feeling positive that I was able to control my attack to a certain extent and I didn't feel the need to have to take a diazepam. But I also feel disappointed that I had another one after what seems like a long time, I feel as though I still have a lot of work to do before I can get over my anxiety and these attacks once an for all!!! :(
Laura xxx