Matthew82
24-09-09, 11:33
Hi everyone,
I'm not sure I'm posting this in the right place, but I guess I wanted to write down my feelings to see if anyone has any comments.
I'm 26, and I come from the north west of England. For 12 years I was bullied at school and, ever since, I've suffered from panic and anxiety. The symptoms are mainly racing, pounding heart, facial and back sweating, a feeling that my stomach is in knots, inability to concentrate, tearfulness, and low mood.
I've just moved from away from living with my parents in the north west, to start a PhD on the south coast, and am feeling really bad about it. My family have been a huge support for me throughout my life, and I feel like I've lost them now (even a hug can be of immense help), and I'm feeling very alone. I'm also worrying about whether I'll be able to do my work, and keep a cool head, and all these worries are coming together to make me feel very unhappy.
I'm taking clomipramine, which perhaps help a bit, but at the moment, the anxiety seems to be breaking through it. Mornings are the worst, but the anxiety never goes, and I'm feeling like life is a treadmill which is going too fast, but I can't stop running or I'll fall off.
I talk to my family about this over the phone, but it's not the same as having them there with me, and I feel so alone right now that it's not easy to do things.
Does anyone have any comments.similar experiences/advice? I'd be really grateful for anything.
Thank you.
Matt
I'm not sure I'm posting this in the right place, but I guess I wanted to write down my feelings to see if anyone has any comments.
I'm 26, and I come from the north west of England. For 12 years I was bullied at school and, ever since, I've suffered from panic and anxiety. The symptoms are mainly racing, pounding heart, facial and back sweating, a feeling that my stomach is in knots, inability to concentrate, tearfulness, and low mood.
I've just moved from away from living with my parents in the north west, to start a PhD on the south coast, and am feeling really bad about it. My family have been a huge support for me throughout my life, and I feel like I've lost them now (even a hug can be of immense help), and I'm feeling very alone. I'm also worrying about whether I'll be able to do my work, and keep a cool head, and all these worries are coming together to make me feel very unhappy.
I'm taking clomipramine, which perhaps help a bit, but at the moment, the anxiety seems to be breaking through it. Mornings are the worst, but the anxiety never goes, and I'm feeling like life is a treadmill which is going too fast, but I can't stop running or I'll fall off.
I talk to my family about this over the phone, but it's not the same as having them there with me, and I feel so alone right now that it's not easy to do things.
Does anyone have any comments.similar experiences/advice? I'd be really grateful for anything.
Thank you.
Matt