debs180
26-09-09, 23:23
Its my birthday today, (29) Ive had a good day with family and friends, my little girls have been fantastic, made me breakfast in bed.
Ive had a few hiccups the last couple of weeks with new sypmtoms for me, but they have subsided, so decided today was gonna be a good day........ it was until about an hour ago.
My boyfriend and father to our 2 girls who i have been with for 13 yrs, and who has been a total rock thru out all my problems, turned round out of the blue and said he has had enough!!! He is fed up with not knowing what mood im going to be in, fed up with something always being wrong.
I know im not always easy to live with and that my moods are up and down, but on a whole im ok, i never take it out on him and i try not to burden him.
So now hes fallen asleep my mind is racing about him not wanting me, loving me, what if he whats to end our relationship and leave. I love him and our girls more than anything, and im doing all i can to beat this bloody anxiety.
Im worrying so much im starting to panic and im fighting the panic but its really consuming me this time and im frightened, i dont want to have a panic attack. Im feeling really scared of everything now, and ive got a horrible pressure all at the back of my head!!! What will i do if he wants some time apart??? God the panic is coming........thanks for taking time to read.
Debs xx
Ive had a few hiccups the last couple of weeks with new sypmtoms for me, but they have subsided, so decided today was gonna be a good day........ it was until about an hour ago.
My boyfriend and father to our 2 girls who i have been with for 13 yrs, and who has been a total rock thru out all my problems, turned round out of the blue and said he has had enough!!! He is fed up with not knowing what mood im going to be in, fed up with something always being wrong.
I know im not always easy to live with and that my moods are up and down, but on a whole im ok, i never take it out on him and i try not to burden him.
So now hes fallen asleep my mind is racing about him not wanting me, loving me, what if he whats to end our relationship and leave. I love him and our girls more than anything, and im doing all i can to beat this bloody anxiety.
Im worrying so much im starting to panic and im fighting the panic but its really consuming me this time and im frightened, i dont want to have a panic attack. Im feeling really scared of everything now, and ive got a horrible pressure all at the back of my head!!! What will i do if he wants some time apart??? God the panic is coming........thanks for taking time to read.
Debs xx