happyone
27-09-09, 19:46
I am just so sick of it. When I first used to use this forum....many moons ago, I would advise people so so so strongly to not take benzo's like diazepam or nitrazepam due to their highly addictive qualities. Today I had to take one or I wouldn't have got through the day. You know that fear when you waken in the morning? You just know you can't cope?
I saw to my kids basic needs then went back to bed, unwashed, fully clothed, hair unbrushed. This has been the status quo for the last few days.
So, what came first? I am depressed and unable to cope with things in a strong manner. I have been sacked, my hubs is in trouble at work, all my usual support folk in the mental health team are on holiday.
I am anxious as I am worried about how we will pay the mortgage, continue to survive finacially, and then I worry about everything. Going out tomorrow, taking kids to school, will I manage without diazepam tomorrow....
I really felt like taking all my meds today. I didn't, but I am now anxious at a return of these feelings. My MHT are not around for another 11 days. I don't know any of the rest of the MHT so I don't know who to call on and they will just give me more meds.
I am seeing my GP on Tue but I never talk to her about my mental health, just my physical.
I am just sounding off I suppose. Not felt as bad as this as in a long time.:weep:
Happyone
xx
I saw to my kids basic needs then went back to bed, unwashed, fully clothed, hair unbrushed. This has been the status quo for the last few days.
So, what came first? I am depressed and unable to cope with things in a strong manner. I have been sacked, my hubs is in trouble at work, all my usual support folk in the mental health team are on holiday.
I am anxious as I am worried about how we will pay the mortgage, continue to survive finacially, and then I worry about everything. Going out tomorrow, taking kids to school, will I manage without diazepam tomorrow....
I really felt like taking all my meds today. I didn't, but I am now anxious at a return of these feelings. My MHT are not around for another 11 days. I don't know any of the rest of the MHT so I don't know who to call on and they will just give me more meds.
I am seeing my GP on Tue but I never talk to her about my mental health, just my physical.
I am just sounding off I suppose. Not felt as bad as this as in a long time.:weep:
Happyone
xx