Dolan1989
29-09-09, 01:42
went out on thursday night to a uni social. It was the first time I'd been out in a while and was really enjoying being out with my friends, I didn't get panicky and enjoyed the night.
About half an hour ago though I remembered something silly and started to dwell on it. I was on the dance floor with a friend whenhe hit me in the face for a laugh. It was meant to be a play fight but it did hurt so i shouted at him but not really being serious. I think he took it a bit to heart so I gave him a quick peck and said not to worry i was only joking. He probably wuldn't even remember it if I mentioned it.
I was sat thinking about it though and although it was nothing romantic, I don't find the guy romantic or anything, and I felt really bad on my boyfriend, as if I'd one something really wrong.
i decided to tell him so I've just gone into our room to tell him. He is really tired though so he's kind of just said ok and rolled back over and gone to sleep.
I'm now sat here though worrying that tomorrow he's going to be really angry and bring up past problems. He once kissed a couple of girls on a night out and decided he didn't want to be with me, started seeing the other girl before realising a couple of weeks laterthat he wanted to be back with me. I love him so I forgave him although it's taken over a year to get over.
I've tried going to sleep but I've just got really worked up and ill.
I'm also panicking because it's back to uni tomorrow and I'm already struglling with my dissertation and I just don't know how I'm going to get through the year.
I'm also seeing a counsellor for the first time tomorrow which at the moment just seems to be adding problems.
If this doesn't sound like a completely stupid problem to you, then please help, as I just feel awful right now.
Nat xx
About half an hour ago though I remembered something silly and started to dwell on it. I was on the dance floor with a friend whenhe hit me in the face for a laugh. It was meant to be a play fight but it did hurt so i shouted at him but not really being serious. I think he took it a bit to heart so I gave him a quick peck and said not to worry i was only joking. He probably wuldn't even remember it if I mentioned it.
I was sat thinking about it though and although it was nothing romantic, I don't find the guy romantic or anything, and I felt really bad on my boyfriend, as if I'd one something really wrong.
i decided to tell him so I've just gone into our room to tell him. He is really tired though so he's kind of just said ok and rolled back over and gone to sleep.
I'm now sat here though worrying that tomorrow he's going to be really angry and bring up past problems. He once kissed a couple of girls on a night out and decided he didn't want to be with me, started seeing the other girl before realising a couple of weeks laterthat he wanted to be back with me. I love him so I forgave him although it's taken over a year to get over.
I've tried going to sleep but I've just got really worked up and ill.
I'm also panicking because it's back to uni tomorrow and I'm already struglling with my dissertation and I just don't know how I'm going to get through the year.
I'm also seeing a counsellor for the first time tomorrow which at the moment just seems to be adding problems.
If this doesn't sound like a completely stupid problem to you, then please help, as I just feel awful right now.
Nat xx