Flying Badger
29-09-09, 04:22
Hi Folks.
Well, it's been a rather rough time for me latley. The past 3-4 weeks have been rife with full-on panic attacks, many of them lasting several hours. I've had urges to self harm again, and a relatives bottle of morphine has looked a little too tempting on more than one occasion, just to put me to sleep (not permanantly) and get me away from the onslaught of panic for a few hours.
I've seen my CBT therapist three times so far (I see her weekly) and it seems promising. No real 'treatment' yet, but she has been asking for a lot of background information. Something the previous therapist didn't do. My GP doesn't want to consider medication until I've had a few more sessions.
I suppose I haven't been helped by getting very little sleep. I get really intense pain in my lower abdomen (right flank to be exact) at times, and it's been extremely bad for about a week. I visited an out-of-hours GP on Friday, but got no help, so ended up awake for over 50 hours. To say I felt ill is an understatement, not to mention the raging pain.
I saw my GP this morning, and got some reasonable painkillers. I only ever get a small supply, given the 'risk' of my taking too many, but I hope I'll get a couple of days releif. I got into bed when I got home, but a huge panic attack prevented me getting any sleep. I managed to grab about 2 hours on the settee this evening, but have felt too anxious to sleep again since. The chest tightness / pain, tingling left arm and hand and huge changes in pulse (going from 130 down to 60 within 2 minuites, and back up again) has me seriously considering a visit to A&E. I would have already gone had I got enough money for a taxi.
To finish on a positive note though, whilst typing this post, I feel less anxious. Without realising it, I've calmed down a little - I assume that concentrating / thinking what I want to type has distracted me a little.
Cheers for now
Gary
Well, it's been a rather rough time for me latley. The past 3-4 weeks have been rife with full-on panic attacks, many of them lasting several hours. I've had urges to self harm again, and a relatives bottle of morphine has looked a little too tempting on more than one occasion, just to put me to sleep (not permanantly) and get me away from the onslaught of panic for a few hours.
I've seen my CBT therapist three times so far (I see her weekly) and it seems promising. No real 'treatment' yet, but she has been asking for a lot of background information. Something the previous therapist didn't do. My GP doesn't want to consider medication until I've had a few more sessions.
I suppose I haven't been helped by getting very little sleep. I get really intense pain in my lower abdomen (right flank to be exact) at times, and it's been extremely bad for about a week. I visited an out-of-hours GP on Friday, but got no help, so ended up awake for over 50 hours. To say I felt ill is an understatement, not to mention the raging pain.
I saw my GP this morning, and got some reasonable painkillers. I only ever get a small supply, given the 'risk' of my taking too many, but I hope I'll get a couple of days releif. I got into bed when I got home, but a huge panic attack prevented me getting any sleep. I managed to grab about 2 hours on the settee this evening, but have felt too anxious to sleep again since. The chest tightness / pain, tingling left arm and hand and huge changes in pulse (going from 130 down to 60 within 2 minuites, and back up again) has me seriously considering a visit to A&E. I would have already gone had I got enough money for a taxi.
To finish on a positive note though, whilst typing this post, I feel less anxious. Without realising it, I've calmed down a little - I assume that concentrating / thinking what I want to type has distracted me a little.
Cheers for now
Gary