lizzie29
29-09-09, 14:53
Hi
I've had a really difficult year (my husband committed fraud by forging my signature and we're now getting divorced, my sister nearly died and had a stillborn baby...)
I have separation anxiety so leaving my husband was doubly hard. I was doing so well at first and even managed to spend a few nights overnight on my own, which was always an issue for me.
Since last week though, I've gone rapidly downhill. I spent last Wednesday and Thursday feeling really low, really upset and crying lots. Then on Thursday night I started to feel panicky, worse than I've done for a long time. The weekend wasn't too bad, I went to stay with my parents, but then when it came to leaving them on Sunday night it was really hard. Part of me wanted to stay but I knew it'd be even harder then on Monday, and that I'd never want to go back then.
Yesterday was okish, but today I'm a mess. This afternoon I've been crying loads, really hysterical, and feeling so anxious, I can feel the panic rising. It's horrible, I've not felt this bad for a long time and I feel all the old thoughts - I can't do this, I can't cope, I need to get away, etc etc.
I just feel really alone, like noone understands. I spoke to my parents but they're really stressed by the whole situation and I felt like they were getting frustrated and impatient with me, even though rationally thinking I'm sure they weren't and were just worried.
Thanks for reading, it helped to get it all out. And it's nice to know there are people out there who can understand, and not just think it's weird! :)
I've had a really difficult year (my husband committed fraud by forging my signature and we're now getting divorced, my sister nearly died and had a stillborn baby...)
I have separation anxiety so leaving my husband was doubly hard. I was doing so well at first and even managed to spend a few nights overnight on my own, which was always an issue for me.
Since last week though, I've gone rapidly downhill. I spent last Wednesday and Thursday feeling really low, really upset and crying lots. Then on Thursday night I started to feel panicky, worse than I've done for a long time. The weekend wasn't too bad, I went to stay with my parents, but then when it came to leaving them on Sunday night it was really hard. Part of me wanted to stay but I knew it'd be even harder then on Monday, and that I'd never want to go back then.
Yesterday was okish, but today I'm a mess. This afternoon I've been crying loads, really hysterical, and feeling so anxious, I can feel the panic rising. It's horrible, I've not felt this bad for a long time and I feel all the old thoughts - I can't do this, I can't cope, I need to get away, etc etc.
I just feel really alone, like noone understands. I spoke to my parents but they're really stressed by the whole situation and I felt like they were getting frustrated and impatient with me, even though rationally thinking I'm sure they weren't and were just worried.
Thanks for reading, it helped to get it all out. And it's nice to know there are people out there who can understand, and not just think it's weird! :)