Don't want to get into a routine

[Joellie]

Im worried because im finding it hard to leave my house for social things. Such as college, i get all nervious and sick before i leave and recently ive just decided to stay in. I dont want to get into a routine of it but unless im only going out for less than 5 hours i panic about it.

I feel guilty because im always lying about why i cant go and im worried i wont get into university if i miss too much :(

I dont want to have agoraphobia but i just fear being around people too long incase i get anxiety or start feeling depressed.