Ryanthegunner
01-10-09, 15:35
I dunno if any one remember me one here few months ago with my problems. Thought i had OCD? But since then ive been doctors few times, im on meds and been to counceling. The main problem to start of with was scared of becoming a peadophille, now that has almost fully gone. But i just always link my self to things.
I saw a blind man and thought maybe ill become blind?
I see someone get killed on a program and think maybe i will kill someone, or i will get killed?
I see about a rapist and i get worried i will do it.
I see a peadophille and i think i might end up like that?
I see someone go disabled and i think i will end up like that?
I also have another thing, which is thinking lifes a dream, and i start questioning things, but i guess this all linked?
I guess its all anxiety and i wont end up none of these but it just makes me feel panicky.
Also it sounds weird, but if i ever watch porn, i feel as if im guilty after, like its wrong and i should watch? Or if i think of someone i know (girls, of my age) when i mastubate i feel like oh god, im sick in the head for thinking that...
Does this make sense? Is it wrong? Someone just give me advice please. Thank you.
I saw a blind man and thought maybe ill become blind?
I see someone get killed on a program and think maybe i will kill someone, or i will get killed?
I see about a rapist and i get worried i will do it.
I see a peadophille and i think i might end up like that?
I see someone go disabled and i think i will end up like that?
I also have another thing, which is thinking lifes a dream, and i start questioning things, but i guess this all linked?
I guess its all anxiety and i wont end up none of these but it just makes me feel panicky.
Also it sounds weird, but if i ever watch porn, i feel as if im guilty after, like its wrong and i should watch? Or if i think of someone i know (girls, of my age) when i mastubate i feel like oh god, im sick in the head for thinking that...
Does this make sense? Is it wrong? Someone just give me advice please. Thank you.