Arhhh Help!!

[Ryanthegunner]

I dunno if any one remember me one here few months ago with my problems. Thought i had OCD? But since then ive been doctors few times, im on meds and been to counceling. The main problem to start of with was scared of becoming a peadophille, now that has almost fully gone. But i just always link my self to things.

I saw a blind man and thought maybe ill become blind?

I see someone get killed on a program and think maybe i will kill someone, or i will get killed?

I see about a rapist and i get worried i will do it.

I see a peadophille and i think i might end up like that?

I see someone go disabled and i think i will end up like that?

I also have another thing, which is thinking lifes a dream, and i start questioning things, but i guess this all linked?

I guess its all anxiety and i wont end up none of these but it just makes me feel panicky.

Also it sounds weird, but if i ever watch porn, i feel as if im guilty after, like its wrong and i should watch? Or if i think of someone i know (girls, of my age) when i mastubate i feel like oh god, im sick in the head for thinking that...

Does this make sense? Is it wrong? Someone just give me advice please. Thank you.

[Joellie]

The thoughts about porn etc may come from something you were told when you were younger. People often feel this way when their parents say that to watch that and masturbate is wrong. Its not, its natural and i think porn is fine because its just an act!

As for the other thoughts, it does sound OCDish and they seem like they are all linked to anxiety. I always question things, especially if they are things that are good in my life.

[Maj]

Yes, I think this is ocd. You repeatedly think about one issue, then another one comes in, followed by another one...... It's all caused by a tired anxious mind. When you finally try and relax a bit and accept these repeated thoughts as part of an anxious mind they won't happen to much and won't be so important to you. Try not to be frightened by them. Also, try not to feel too guilty about these things - you are only human!
Myra:)