donna75
02-10-09, 09:43
Can someone please tell me why i always have to poke and prod my boob every 2 and a half minutes??!!??
I think i have this lump, which let me first say i know FULL WELL it isnt a lump, its just a fatty bit of tissue thats been there for years. I know its been there years because about 8 or 9 yrs ago i thought i found another lump and even though the doc assured me it was just a ridge of fatty tissue, i went to have an ultrasound anyway to cure my fears. they too, found nothing and i was happy. i remember getting home from there and had one last feel of my lump that wasnt a lump, lol, all happy and ready to get on with my life and thats when i found this fatty lump bit next to it. i call it a fatty lump because thats really how it is. anyway at the time when i felt that, i didnt care too much because i had just been to the hospital so if it were a problem it would of been seen since it was right by the other lump that wasnt a lump to begin with.:D
over the years, i purposly avoided that part of my boob if i was having any kind of HA because i knew that if i felt it that i would of gone into one again. that was until a few days back when i innocently felt it in detail. it feels exactly the same as it did but for no reason whatsoever, my HA came back with full force and all sorts went running through my head. i poked, i prodded, i pinched, i cried and i laughed at myself because i KNEW that it was and always has been a part of my boob...
but, something makes me continue to prod it and poke and feel. today i must of already felt it 40 times. its almost like, i feel i HAVE to do it continually. when i feel it, i feel better for those few seconds ( obviously because i remind myself that it IS just a part of my boob) but then straight after, i feel i have to do it again. if it doesnt feel the way it felt the last time i did it (ie if i feel it at a different angle or something stupid), i panic and so i feel it again until it resembles how it felt the first time....and so on...:wacko:
im trying to stop myself from touching it for the rest of the day, i dont know if ill be able to though. i guess its like, even though i know deep down that its a part of me and my boob is perfectly okay, the moment im not feeling it, my mind is imagining this rock hard lump is eating away at me, even though its not rock hard and its definitley NOT EATING!!!! arrgghhhhhhh :mad:
so after all that rambling, my question is this...im feeling a fatty bit of tissue that ive had for years, but my mind tells me its a rock hard cancerous lump...does anyone else have that or im just way too weird to be here?? :unsure: its driving me loopy
I think i have this lump, which let me first say i know FULL WELL it isnt a lump, its just a fatty bit of tissue thats been there for years. I know its been there years because about 8 or 9 yrs ago i thought i found another lump and even though the doc assured me it was just a ridge of fatty tissue, i went to have an ultrasound anyway to cure my fears. they too, found nothing and i was happy. i remember getting home from there and had one last feel of my lump that wasnt a lump, lol, all happy and ready to get on with my life and thats when i found this fatty lump bit next to it. i call it a fatty lump because thats really how it is. anyway at the time when i felt that, i didnt care too much because i had just been to the hospital so if it were a problem it would of been seen since it was right by the other lump that wasnt a lump to begin with.:D
over the years, i purposly avoided that part of my boob if i was having any kind of HA because i knew that if i felt it that i would of gone into one again. that was until a few days back when i innocently felt it in detail. it feels exactly the same as it did but for no reason whatsoever, my HA came back with full force and all sorts went running through my head. i poked, i prodded, i pinched, i cried and i laughed at myself because i KNEW that it was and always has been a part of my boob...
but, something makes me continue to prod it and poke and feel. today i must of already felt it 40 times. its almost like, i feel i HAVE to do it continually. when i feel it, i feel better for those few seconds ( obviously because i remind myself that it IS just a part of my boob) but then straight after, i feel i have to do it again. if it doesnt feel the way it felt the last time i did it (ie if i feel it at a different angle or something stupid), i panic and so i feel it again until it resembles how it felt the first time....and so on...:wacko:
im trying to stop myself from touching it for the rest of the day, i dont know if ill be able to though. i guess its like, even though i know deep down that its a part of me and my boob is perfectly okay, the moment im not feeling it, my mind is imagining this rock hard lump is eating away at me, even though its not rock hard and its definitley NOT EATING!!!! arrgghhhhhhh :mad:
so after all that rambling, my question is this...im feeling a fatty bit of tissue that ive had for years, but my mind tells me its a rock hard cancerous lump...does anyone else have that or im just way too weird to be here?? :unsure: its driving me loopy