veebea
03-10-09, 22:09
I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety after a very tough few years- my partner left when I was pregnant with a very much planned and wanted baby, I was made redundant while on maternity leave and I generally became a bit of a slave to some odd behaviours around phone calls, opening my mail and having my windows locked shut all the time :wacko:
I've been put on trazodone after a disasterous week on citalopram and I have no doubt that it's been fantastic- it has let me deal with things I otherwise would not have been able to. But the fears are still there, even if the crushing feeling of anxiety isn't. I KNOW noone is going to come and get me. There is no reason to be afraid to open my wondows or my mail. But it has become a problem, so in that respect I know talking to someone would help. I am just really really frightened of opening up to someone, and worried my problem is all in my mind (how silly does that sound, of course it's in my mind :wacko:). The trazodone has taken away the physical feelings of anxiety but I am slightly concerned it has taken me a bit too far out of myself- If I went to therapy I worry that I wouldn't really be 'present' in the room, which would be a problem in itself. I have a lot I am scared to talk about, and I am worried what will be dragged up, even though I know it is talkign about things that is going to help.
Is this a normal way to feel about starting counselling? My appointment is for a week on Monday so I am thinking of trying to work up the nerve to call them this week just for a quick talk to tell them what I am worried about
I've been put on trazodone after a disasterous week on citalopram and I have no doubt that it's been fantastic- it has let me deal with things I otherwise would not have been able to. But the fears are still there, even if the crushing feeling of anxiety isn't. I KNOW noone is going to come and get me. There is no reason to be afraid to open my wondows or my mail. But it has become a problem, so in that respect I know talking to someone would help. I am just really really frightened of opening up to someone, and worried my problem is all in my mind (how silly does that sound, of course it's in my mind :wacko:). The trazodone has taken away the physical feelings of anxiety but I am slightly concerned it has taken me a bit too far out of myself- If I went to therapy I worry that I wouldn't really be 'present' in the room, which would be a problem in itself. I have a lot I am scared to talk about, and I am worried what will be dragged up, even though I know it is talkign about things that is going to help.
Is this a normal way to feel about starting counselling? My appointment is for a week on Monday so I am thinking of trying to work up the nerve to call them this week just for a quick talk to tell them what I am worried about