Angelai
07-10-09, 22:32
Hi, I've posted before about uncontrollable rage (experienced when I stopped my medication for depression/anxiety). I'm some months further on now and all of sudden this anger has come back.
I'm scared that it's depression, that I will need to go back on the pills. I get really angry about all sorts of things - people parking their cars inconsiderately, or just generally not driving to an (in my irritable opinion) acceptable standard :blush:. When someone is rude or inconsiderate in general, like a woman today - I was about to leave a shop and as I got to the door someone appeared on the other side, so I opened the door and paused to see if they would come in first, but this other, arrogant pikey thing appeared from nowhere and just pushed past us both! It sounds so trivial now but I was livid. I get in a rage when I'm at home alone, too. Tonight, I was fitting a new cat flap (frightened cats come through them way too fast and, well, plastic just doesn't cut it!) and was getting so wound up because I couldn't get the screws in. Then the curtain pole fell on my head, luckily it's still pole shaped and not U shaped... but again, soooo angry. Then I get really angry with myself for eating too much when I don't want to put any weight on. I go back and kick things if I've tripped over them. I punch cupboard doors/shelves etc if I bang my head on them. I thow things, pull my hair. A few times I've smacked my head against the wall.
Is this depression again/still??? I know that only my doctor can diagnose, but I would really appreciate any thoughts/opinions.
Thank you :wacko:
I'm scared that it's depression, that I will need to go back on the pills. I get really angry about all sorts of things - people parking their cars inconsiderately, or just generally not driving to an (in my irritable opinion) acceptable standard :blush:. When someone is rude or inconsiderate in general, like a woman today - I was about to leave a shop and as I got to the door someone appeared on the other side, so I opened the door and paused to see if they would come in first, but this other, arrogant pikey thing appeared from nowhere and just pushed past us both! It sounds so trivial now but I was livid. I get in a rage when I'm at home alone, too. Tonight, I was fitting a new cat flap (frightened cats come through them way too fast and, well, plastic just doesn't cut it!) and was getting so wound up because I couldn't get the screws in. Then the curtain pole fell on my head, luckily it's still pole shaped and not U shaped... but again, soooo angry. Then I get really angry with myself for eating too much when I don't want to put any weight on. I go back and kick things if I've tripped over them. I punch cupboard doors/shelves etc if I bang my head on them. I thow things, pull my hair. A few times I've smacked my head against the wall.
Is this depression again/still??? I know that only my doctor can diagnose, but I would really appreciate any thoughts/opinions.
Thank you :wacko: