Hayz
14-10-09, 13:38
Hi all,
Joined a couple of years back and decided not to look about as someone mentioned that if I read about it I will only get worse but I'm now at the point where I need to talk to others who understand.
I'm 24 now, had been renting a flat with my boyfriend for the past 6 months and realised it was so expensive that we weren't actually saving anything. We both decided to do the sensible thing and move back in with our own parents to save some money up for hopefully a deposit.
He lives about an hour from me now and I see him about 2 times a week. Really strange living apart. We used to live at my sisters together so we have been living together for 3 years before this so I was used to seeing him everyday.
Moved back in with my parents last Saturday and am kind of enjoying being back at home. It's a comfort thing. I like chilling with my mum and dad in the evenings plus having dinner cooked for me is lovely.
I have been a receptionist for the last 2 years and I love it. I am contracted part time. I do afternoon shifts from 1 - 5:30 but sometimes do morning work as overtime to cover. I might be getting a full time job soon as the reception is moving to a different location and will require 2 people on at the same time.
My anxiety has always been with me. The last 2 years I am so proud of myself for holding down my job, and enjoying it. I have good and bad days.
However since last Thursday my anxiety as been sky high. People say it's because of the move but I'm seriously not worried about it. Maybe it's a sub conscious thing? I am struggling to get through work everyday and even getting to the bus stop. Today I got on the bus and was in tears because I felt so bad. I'm scared I'm going back to square one and I really can't afford to lose my job. I've had time off already this year through illness.
I hate having to deal with this on my own but I also hate having people worry about me. I'm going to ring the doctors up this afternoon and make an appointment for tomorrow morning. I haven't been for ages as it's not been this bad for along time.
Sometimes I strongly believe it cant be anxiety. How can I feel this ill as soon as I get out of bed if it is anxiety? Do you ever feel the doctors are wrong and that there is something physical making you ill?
When I first started suffering I paid to get all sorts of tests done and the only thing they found was that I was anemic.
I've just totally had enough of struggling through every day. I'm at breaking point. I dont really get panic attacks, more like it being a constant thing and just gets worse sometimes. I feel ill all the time.
Joined a couple of years back and decided not to look about as someone mentioned that if I read about it I will only get worse but I'm now at the point where I need to talk to others who understand.
I'm 24 now, had been renting a flat with my boyfriend for the past 6 months and realised it was so expensive that we weren't actually saving anything. We both decided to do the sensible thing and move back in with our own parents to save some money up for hopefully a deposit.
He lives about an hour from me now and I see him about 2 times a week. Really strange living apart. We used to live at my sisters together so we have been living together for 3 years before this so I was used to seeing him everyday.
Moved back in with my parents last Saturday and am kind of enjoying being back at home. It's a comfort thing. I like chilling with my mum and dad in the evenings plus having dinner cooked for me is lovely.
I have been a receptionist for the last 2 years and I love it. I am contracted part time. I do afternoon shifts from 1 - 5:30 but sometimes do morning work as overtime to cover. I might be getting a full time job soon as the reception is moving to a different location and will require 2 people on at the same time.
My anxiety has always been with me. The last 2 years I am so proud of myself for holding down my job, and enjoying it. I have good and bad days.
However since last Thursday my anxiety as been sky high. People say it's because of the move but I'm seriously not worried about it. Maybe it's a sub conscious thing? I am struggling to get through work everyday and even getting to the bus stop. Today I got on the bus and was in tears because I felt so bad. I'm scared I'm going back to square one and I really can't afford to lose my job. I've had time off already this year through illness.
I hate having to deal with this on my own but I also hate having people worry about me. I'm going to ring the doctors up this afternoon and make an appointment for tomorrow morning. I haven't been for ages as it's not been this bad for along time.
Sometimes I strongly believe it cant be anxiety. How can I feel this ill as soon as I get out of bed if it is anxiety? Do you ever feel the doctors are wrong and that there is something physical making you ill?
When I first started suffering I paid to get all sorts of tests done and the only thing they found was that I was anemic.
I've just totally had enough of struggling through every day. I'm at breaking point. I dont really get panic attacks, more like it being a constant thing and just gets worse sometimes. I feel ill all the time.