LisaLisa
15-10-09, 14:35
Hi everyone
Just would like if soneone could help me a little to not google. I have a very long ongoing saga of health anxiety over some symptoms that google told me are hiv and nothing else although i have had five negative hiv tests. . . . . .
Today and most of the time now the main symptom that is freaking me out and keeping this going is a big squishy pebble like lump in my left cheek that is attached to my parotid salivary gland. Also i have a lymph node up right under it under my jaw and right next to it on both side ( one near the lips and another just infront of my ear. There is nothing that i can find wrong with the other cheek/gland. Also the part of it which stops me fron putting it out of my mind is that my mouth is continualy dry on that side, right along where my teeth join and my tongue on that side.
I went to the dr before and told her about it and she felt the lump and said it feels like a cyst conected to the gland. Thats when i freaked and told her that i was pertified it was caused by hiv. She said ...'this is not a presentation of hiv , not with negative hiv tests'
Becuae of my levels of distress she was not prepared to refer me for it to be looked into as she didnt feel that it was improtant enough to cuase me more anxiety waiting for tests and appointments. She said if she thought it was important she would refer me to a tumour clinic right away.
Well that was nearly six months ago and i have hardly touched it since. But two days ago the dryness was getting on my nerves do i had a really good feel again and was really shocked to find that its even bigger now than it was. The dryness has gotten so much worse since i squashed it about the other day.... i just want it to go ... i was trying to burst it was was really rough with it.
Also she told me that those glands only make 25 percent of the saliva between them so it would not cause a dry mouth if one side wasnt working properly....but i really do feel it.
Can anyone stop me from googling ..... I would really like to be able to beleive that other things other than hiv could cuase this symptom.
I sorry this has gone on for so long...........
Thanks
anyone
Lisa
xxxxx
Just would like if soneone could help me a little to not google. I have a very long ongoing saga of health anxiety over some symptoms that google told me are hiv and nothing else although i have had five negative hiv tests. . . . . .
Today and most of the time now the main symptom that is freaking me out and keeping this going is a big squishy pebble like lump in my left cheek that is attached to my parotid salivary gland. Also i have a lymph node up right under it under my jaw and right next to it on both side ( one near the lips and another just infront of my ear. There is nothing that i can find wrong with the other cheek/gland. Also the part of it which stops me fron putting it out of my mind is that my mouth is continualy dry on that side, right along where my teeth join and my tongue on that side.
I went to the dr before and told her about it and she felt the lump and said it feels like a cyst conected to the gland. Thats when i freaked and told her that i was pertified it was caused by hiv. She said ...'this is not a presentation of hiv , not with negative hiv tests'
Becuae of my levels of distress she was not prepared to refer me for it to be looked into as she didnt feel that it was improtant enough to cuase me more anxiety waiting for tests and appointments. She said if she thought it was important she would refer me to a tumour clinic right away.
Well that was nearly six months ago and i have hardly touched it since. But two days ago the dryness was getting on my nerves do i had a really good feel again and was really shocked to find that its even bigger now than it was. The dryness has gotten so much worse since i squashed it about the other day.... i just want it to go ... i was trying to burst it was was really rough with it.
Also she told me that those glands only make 25 percent of the saliva between them so it would not cause a dry mouth if one side wasnt working properly....but i really do feel it.
Can anyone stop me from googling ..... I would really like to be able to beleive that other things other than hiv could cuase this symptom.
I sorry this has gone on for so long...........
Thanks
anyone
Lisa
xxxxx