RachyLou
15-10-09, 16:14
hi everyone
I've suffered from anxiety, panic attacks and depression for 8 years since i had my first son. I had my second son nearly 2 years ago and it's been alot worse. Just lately i've been having the most horrible thoughts. I can't stop imagining killing myself. When I had my second son i lost alot of blood and went a little loopy. I kept thinking everything was evil and i wanted to lash out physically at someone, i had my son taken out of the room because i was scared i'd hurt him, i kept thinking about throwing myself out of the hospital window and then for sometime after that i was afraid to be alone with my son. Now i just can't stop thinking about that time and i keep thinking i'm gonna harm my kids and it scares me. I'm anxious all the time, i'm paniced all the time, i just wanna cry all the time. I can't talk to anyone because of what they might think of me and i'm scared of losing my kids. I seriously think there is something wrong with me. I'm already taking 30mg Citalopram. I keep wondering if I should be in a hospital or something. Please help me. I don't know what to do.
Rachel
I've suffered from anxiety, panic attacks and depression for 8 years since i had my first son. I had my second son nearly 2 years ago and it's been alot worse. Just lately i've been having the most horrible thoughts. I can't stop imagining killing myself. When I had my second son i lost alot of blood and went a little loopy. I kept thinking everything was evil and i wanted to lash out physically at someone, i had my son taken out of the room because i was scared i'd hurt him, i kept thinking about throwing myself out of the hospital window and then for sometime after that i was afraid to be alone with my son. Now i just can't stop thinking about that time and i keep thinking i'm gonna harm my kids and it scares me. I'm anxious all the time, i'm paniced all the time, i just wanna cry all the time. I can't talk to anyone because of what they might think of me and i'm scared of losing my kids. I seriously think there is something wrong with me. I'm already taking 30mg Citalopram. I keep wondering if I should be in a hospital or something. Please help me. I don't know what to do.
Rachel