nicki
02-11-05, 22:10
Hi, I'm new to this web site. I am 34 years old and first suffered from panic/anxiety 8 years ago. I am a very outgoing, fun loving person who has appeared on stage, singing and acting since I was about 5 years old. I get on great with people and am usually the life and soul of the party. I have an incredible family ( I live at home with my Mom, Dad, Sister and dog).
My first episode of panic started when I had took on a new job. I basically (to cut a long story short) began to dislike my job. I started to suffer with dizziness, headaches and palpitations. Having suffered this for many weeks and started to worry (Have I got a brain tumour etc). I would get so dizzy/giddy I would ask my bosses if I could go home. This started to happen more often so I went to my doctors who checked me over saying I was ok. But as this continued I worried even more, so my mom demanded my doctor refer me to a specialist. (We obviously didn't realise it was stress related issues) The ears,nose and throat specialist carried out tests and even a brain scan. All came back with no problems so I went back to my GP and we came to the conclusion that I was suffering from anxiety and stress. I was away from work for about 2 months (I couldn't face going there, when I tried to I would have a panic attack in the car and began to cry). Luckily my family were brilliant, and work were good also, and they found a new position for me in a local branch. I did get back to work and came off the antidepressants (seroxat), but it took time. Any way for 8 years I have been fine. Even when I was made redundant from my job 5 years ago I coped. I got another job and took to it like a duck to water, but I wasn't happy with where my career was going. I had had enough working in an office, I decided I wanted to become a Police Community Support Officer. About 18 months ago I apllied ( I passed that stage), then I passed the Assessment Day (which was really tough), and now I have a medical in two weeks time.
But 10 weeks ago I left my job of 5 years to work in another office for more money, (hoping it would only be a temporary thing,), but a couple of weeks ago I started having the headaches, jelly legs, dizziness and sicky feelings - Oh God I thought, what if I don't get into the police, the job of my dreams, I will have to stay at the boring office job, that I only took to get paid more, I really miss the people I used to work with. I had three days off last week, because I thought a had a virus, but I realise now it was the beginning of the panic again. I had a dizzy sp:Dell today at work and I thought I was going to faint, my heart starting racing and I really thought I was going to faint. I managed to calm myself down but started to worry, what if I DO faint etc. I have also gone off my food for the last couple of days, which is very UNlike me. I don't want to go to the doctors as this might reflect on my police medical, I really want to get through this on my own. I have spoken to my family and told them how I am feeling and I feel a little better for telling them, they will help me. Can you please give me some suggestions on how to deal with attacks.
My first episode of panic started when I had took on a new job. I basically (to cut a long story short) began to dislike my job. I started to suffer with dizziness, headaches and palpitations. Having suffered this for many weeks and started to worry (Have I got a brain tumour etc). I would get so dizzy/giddy I would ask my bosses if I could go home. This started to happen more often so I went to my doctors who checked me over saying I was ok. But as this continued I worried even more, so my mom demanded my doctor refer me to a specialist. (We obviously didn't realise it was stress related issues) The ears,nose and throat specialist carried out tests and even a brain scan. All came back with no problems so I went back to my GP and we came to the conclusion that I was suffering from anxiety and stress. I was away from work for about 2 months (I couldn't face going there, when I tried to I would have a panic attack in the car and began to cry). Luckily my family were brilliant, and work were good also, and they found a new position for me in a local branch. I did get back to work and came off the antidepressants (seroxat), but it took time. Any way for 8 years I have been fine. Even when I was made redundant from my job 5 years ago I coped. I got another job and took to it like a duck to water, but I wasn't happy with where my career was going. I had had enough working in an office, I decided I wanted to become a Police Community Support Officer. About 18 months ago I apllied ( I passed that stage), then I passed the Assessment Day (which was really tough), and now I have a medical in two weeks time.
But 10 weeks ago I left my job of 5 years to work in another office for more money, (hoping it would only be a temporary thing,), but a couple of weeks ago I started having the headaches, jelly legs, dizziness and sicky feelings - Oh God I thought, what if I don't get into the police, the job of my dreams, I will have to stay at the boring office job, that I only took to get paid more, I really miss the people I used to work with. I had three days off last week, because I thought a had a virus, but I realise now it was the beginning of the panic again. I had a dizzy sp:Dell today at work and I thought I was going to faint, my heart starting racing and I really thought I was going to faint. I managed to calm myself down but started to worry, what if I DO faint etc. I have also gone off my food for the last couple of days, which is very UNlike me. I don't want to go to the doctors as this might reflect on my police medical, I really want to get through this on my own. I have spoken to my family and told them how I am feeling and I feel a little better for telling them, they will help me. Can you please give me some suggestions on how to deal with attacks.