Fran74
15-10-09, 20:16
Hello
tomorrow morning I am flying to Belgrade with my partner and some friends..I am so worried I will have a panic attack ...I have to fly at 8.15 so need to get up so early I am thinking of going to be now so I can have enough sleep,as when I don't sleep my anxiety gets worst..I went to the doc today and he gave me diazepan ...I am sure that will help..at least for the flight...but then when we get there I am hoping not to take any ..but I am worried I will need some so that will mean I will be like the kill joy of the group:weep:
There around 10 of us ..all my friends are all good fun like a laugh and like a drink..so they will want to go to pubs and I will not be able to drink...as since my anxiety has return I can't drink as I used to ...don't get me wrong I think that is good..but you know sometimes you want to let your hair down..well I can't now..I want to be a different person I am fed up of being me ..I want to be like "the normal " ones ...the ones that don't worry ..the ones that when they are going somewhere are excited and not in a state of fear..I am sure all the meds I have will get me through ...but I don't want to get through the weekend I want to enjoy...but maybe that is not possible anymore..
Thanks for reading this and hope you will be thinking of me shaking and panicking in Belgrade..:scared15:
Take care all :hugs::hugs:
Fran
tomorrow morning I am flying to Belgrade with my partner and some friends..I am so worried I will have a panic attack ...I have to fly at 8.15 so need to get up so early I am thinking of going to be now so I can have enough sleep,as when I don't sleep my anxiety gets worst..I went to the doc today and he gave me diazepan ...I am sure that will help..at least for the flight...but then when we get there I am hoping not to take any ..but I am worried I will need some so that will mean I will be like the kill joy of the group:weep:
There around 10 of us ..all my friends are all good fun like a laugh and like a drink..so they will want to go to pubs and I will not be able to drink...as since my anxiety has return I can't drink as I used to ...don't get me wrong I think that is good..but you know sometimes you want to let your hair down..well I can't now..I want to be a different person I am fed up of being me ..I want to be like "the normal " ones ...the ones that don't worry ..the ones that when they are going somewhere are excited and not in a state of fear..I am sure all the meds I have will get me through ...but I don't want to get through the weekend I want to enjoy...but maybe that is not possible anymore..
Thanks for reading this and hope you will be thinking of me shaking and panicking in Belgrade..:scared15:
Take care all :hugs::hugs:
Fran