Ruby94
18-10-09, 15:26
Hello Everyone,
Just wanted to share with you how im feeling this second..
My neck is acheing around my glands, but they arent swelling.
i have a runny nose and this is scareing me. Anyways..
I keep saying to my fiancé ''what if what if what if''
''What if i do have mild swine flu and it kills me, & then it'll be too late'' :weep:
''What if i get really sick and it is swine flu and i wont get better''
Im just waiting to wake up oneday and hes gone for good! :huh:
I have a huge fear of dieing. If i hear or see something tragic my chest closes up and it wont relax till max of 2 hours later, i look stupid infront of my friends and family and i dont know what to do anymore i feel like i should just run away and live in a box or something. :shrug: I dont know maybe im being stupid. But im having a really BAD day today, when im alone with myself i let my mind run, which isnt the best idea.
Yours unsurely.
Ruby x
Just wanted to share with you how im feeling this second..
My neck is acheing around my glands, but they arent swelling.
i have a runny nose and this is scareing me. Anyways..
I keep saying to my fiancé ''what if what if what if''
''What if i do have mild swine flu and it kills me, & then it'll be too late'' :weep:
''What if i get really sick and it is swine flu and i wont get better''
Im just waiting to wake up oneday and hes gone for good! :huh:
I have a huge fear of dieing. If i hear or see something tragic my chest closes up and it wont relax till max of 2 hours later, i look stupid infront of my friends and family and i dont know what to do anymore i feel like i should just run away and live in a box or something. :shrug: I dont know maybe im being stupid. But im having a really BAD day today, when im alone with myself i let my mind run, which isnt the best idea.
Yours unsurely.
Ruby x