marksmum78
22-10-09, 23:31
Hi There
Im new to this but I had to get all this off my chest before my husband goes insane!
For a year or so now Ive been getting pain in and around my shoulder blades, Im too scared to go to the docs in case its cancer. In April this year I had rectal bleeding and went for a colonoscopy, I really didnt think it would be anything but they found 2 ployps which they removed and tested, and were thankfully, negative of anything nasty. But that experience has scared me so much that Im too frightened to go to the doc incase she send me for a chest xray and they tell me I have lung cancer.
The worst part of it is that I smoke, i have quit but the anxiety of having lung cancer makes me smoke more, then I quit again and so on and so forth. I cry myself to sleep every night and I just dont know what to do anymore, Im 31 and have an 8 year old, i just got married last september and my head keeps telling me that now im happy and settled i'll get cancer and die and be taken away from everything and everyone i love.
Its so hard to talk like this with my hubby as he will just think im mad.
If you have read this im sorry for going on and sounding like a nut case (Im also sorry if the spelling is bad, the lights just blown in the computer room and im struggling to see the keyboard lol) any advice gratefully received
Thanks
Im new to this but I had to get all this off my chest before my husband goes insane!
For a year or so now Ive been getting pain in and around my shoulder blades, Im too scared to go to the docs in case its cancer. In April this year I had rectal bleeding and went for a colonoscopy, I really didnt think it would be anything but they found 2 ployps which they removed and tested, and were thankfully, negative of anything nasty. But that experience has scared me so much that Im too frightened to go to the doc incase she send me for a chest xray and they tell me I have lung cancer.
The worst part of it is that I smoke, i have quit but the anxiety of having lung cancer makes me smoke more, then I quit again and so on and so forth. I cry myself to sleep every night and I just dont know what to do anymore, Im 31 and have an 8 year old, i just got married last september and my head keeps telling me that now im happy and settled i'll get cancer and die and be taken away from everything and everyone i love.
Its so hard to talk like this with my hubby as he will just think im mad.
If you have read this im sorry for going on and sounding like a nut case (Im also sorry if the spelling is bad, the lights just blown in the computer room and im struggling to see the keyboard lol) any advice gratefully received
Thanks