nutteetart
23-10-09, 13:42
Hi
I have had GAD, Agoraphobia and Depression in varying degrees for 10 years. Sometimes housebound, terrified and lonely. I did have a brief moment in that time where i thought i was cured but that just made my relapse harder to deal with. Over the years i have just about tried everything from EFT to the Priory and as there is no help for us within the NHS (or not where i am, its a disgrace, but dont get me started!) I have now had to pay out of desperation ( even tho we are skint) to see a psychiatrist and CBT therapist who i have seen before. I am just starting 150mg of pregabalin and i am trying to tackle getting out and about which is tough because i even struggle indoors sometimes.
In order to tackle the agoraphobia i do walks and drives. My first walk was to the end of my garden and now i can get 200yards up the road if i use my 'prop' and push my bike! The neighbours must think me a loon. My drive at first started with me sitting in the car not going anywhere but after two weeks i managed to circle the block which would probably be a mile or two. With the walk and drive i just keep doing the same until i basically get bored with it and then i push my boundaries a bit. Its hard though because everyday i feel like i have to start again. What i manage one day i may not manage the next. Frustrating.
My question really tho is am i doing it right? I cant ask my therapist because i am scared she will think me a pest and i cant get to her surgery at the mo because it just seems too far for me to go right now so i have to wait for a home visit. I feel a fraud but the last time i went there i was clutching the table in abject panic. When i managed my round-the-block- drive, i did it over and over. I then tried it the opposite way and had a major panic. Now i have to start again. I am back just driving up and down my road. Some days i can do more than others too. Also the weather plays a huge part. I can do so much more when the sun is shining. If its raining i get so low i fear i will be sectioned because the thoughts in my head are so scary. Sorry, i am waffling. So apart from thought challenging does anyone have any tips on my agoraphobia cbt and has anyone had GAD, Agoraphobia and depresssion and been significantly helped on Pregabalin and CBT?
Dont i go on?!!!!
THE END
SOZ
I have had GAD, Agoraphobia and Depression in varying degrees for 10 years. Sometimes housebound, terrified and lonely. I did have a brief moment in that time where i thought i was cured but that just made my relapse harder to deal with. Over the years i have just about tried everything from EFT to the Priory and as there is no help for us within the NHS (or not where i am, its a disgrace, but dont get me started!) I have now had to pay out of desperation ( even tho we are skint) to see a psychiatrist and CBT therapist who i have seen before. I am just starting 150mg of pregabalin and i am trying to tackle getting out and about which is tough because i even struggle indoors sometimes.
In order to tackle the agoraphobia i do walks and drives. My first walk was to the end of my garden and now i can get 200yards up the road if i use my 'prop' and push my bike! The neighbours must think me a loon. My drive at first started with me sitting in the car not going anywhere but after two weeks i managed to circle the block which would probably be a mile or two. With the walk and drive i just keep doing the same until i basically get bored with it and then i push my boundaries a bit. Its hard though because everyday i feel like i have to start again. What i manage one day i may not manage the next. Frustrating.
My question really tho is am i doing it right? I cant ask my therapist because i am scared she will think me a pest and i cant get to her surgery at the mo because it just seems too far for me to go right now so i have to wait for a home visit. I feel a fraud but the last time i went there i was clutching the table in abject panic. When i managed my round-the-block- drive, i did it over and over. I then tried it the opposite way and had a major panic. Now i have to start again. I am back just driving up and down my road. Some days i can do more than others too. Also the weather plays a huge part. I can do so much more when the sun is shining. If its raining i get so low i fear i will be sectioned because the thoughts in my head are so scary. Sorry, i am waffling. So apart from thought challenging does anyone have any tips on my agoraphobia cbt and has anyone had GAD, Agoraphobia and depresssion and been significantly helped on Pregabalin and CBT?
Dont i go on?!!!!
THE END
SOZ