lindajane1971
26-10-09, 21:31
Hi,
My first post here :flowers: ive been reading posts on here for weeks and finally have summed up the courage to post.
Im Linda, soon to be 38, 2nd time married with 2 teenagers.
I really have no idea at all what type of anxiety i have, if indeed i do have any and im even more confused about how and where to get help now.
Ive always been a worrier as long as i can remember, i was brought up in a family who liked to keep their emotions inside and to be strong no matter the circumstances, ive only rarely spoken to anyone about my problems and its never really been to family members.
ive had a few traumatic times in my life just like everyone in the world, the break up of my first marriage which was me escaping from an alchoholic who gave me mental abuse, i managed eventually to leave with our kids. The second was the shock loss of my mother aged only 54, 18 months ago suddenly with a heart attack, during this awful time i had to be the strong one and get everything sorted out and it took a lot out of me mentally, as again most of my family dont show emotion in public so i didnt want to show any either, i didnt really get a chance to greive properly and have only recently started to get my head around it all.
Anyway back to my anxiety.........i have been getting random weird heart sensations for years......it feels like all the chambers in my heart are trying to beat at the same time, it only lasts a few seconds and is not painful but they are very strong and make me worried. I had them a couple of times and managed to ignore and not worry about them but after my mum died so young of a heart attack well you can imagine what i was thinking!!
I now get them a lot, i was so upset and worried that i managed to get the courage to see a doctor and i just broke down and told why i was worried. The doctor ordered a heart scan for me, and i was also wired up to a holter monitor for 24 hours, of course nothing happened during any of these procedures, i also had blood tests. All came back normal, blood fine, colestorol fine, not anemic, no diabetes etc etc. also asked to see my mums medical records incase there was anything there that could be hereditory, her records showed nothing.
Doctor has told me they are ectopic beats and i am fine. Well i dont feel fine at all. my last visit he prescribed me half inderal al tablets 80mg and told me to take one once a day which would stop the beats, and help with a bit of anxiety. once i read the leaflet and saw...........slows heart and other side effects the box remains unopened and im too scared to take them! I am meant to see him again this week as he thinks i have been taking them for two weeks but i havent so i dont know what to say when i go back.
My worst symptom which is really making me panicky is this stupid sensation i keep getting, i am sorry if i give strange explinations its just how it feels to me, i hope someone else can explain to me what this is as the doctors cant tell me anything usefull, or if anyone has the same thing i would be interested to talk to them please.
You know the feeling when your face blushes??? That quick "rush" sensation going over your skin??? I feel a sensation similar to that which is maybe slightly tingly too -wash over my upper body and head (not face) at random times, i could be watching tv perfectly relaxed and happy then whoosh!!! its very fast, just a second, i think maybe my vision blurs for that split second too. I also feel this sometimes when i am just dropping off to sleep, of course it then makes me wide awake and wondering what the hell it is for ages! It also feels a bit like that sensation you get when you go fast in a car over a hill on the road (that lurch in your stomach you feel) i get that sensation in my chest which rushes up to my head.
All this happens when im not stressed! it just happens out of the blue, i could be in the bath, at work, driving, watching tv- just random
i am so scared its unreal, i am conviced i have some disease that has been overlooked. A friend told me it was anxiety and panic attacks but im not anxious or panicky until these sensations happen, i dont hyperventilate or have a racing heart or shake/tremble etc i would say maybe the only other thing i feel often would be a bit lightheaded and a bit nauseous but thats basically it. Oh and sometimes if im in a crowded market place or where there is a lot of people i sometimes feel a bit dizzy.
i just sit and wonder if im normal or not, well im sure im not normal as not everyone i meet has these things happen on a daily basis, i know that it starting to depress me and i really want to sort it out at an early stage rather than later.
Can anyone help me please!?!? Does anyone think its some form of anxiety or are there any more tests i should insist my doctor does???
i am sorry for the long winded post, i dont even know if im in the right section of the forum or not, sorry
Linda L :blush:
My first post here :flowers: ive been reading posts on here for weeks and finally have summed up the courage to post.
Im Linda, soon to be 38, 2nd time married with 2 teenagers.
I really have no idea at all what type of anxiety i have, if indeed i do have any and im even more confused about how and where to get help now.
Ive always been a worrier as long as i can remember, i was brought up in a family who liked to keep their emotions inside and to be strong no matter the circumstances, ive only rarely spoken to anyone about my problems and its never really been to family members.
ive had a few traumatic times in my life just like everyone in the world, the break up of my first marriage which was me escaping from an alchoholic who gave me mental abuse, i managed eventually to leave with our kids. The second was the shock loss of my mother aged only 54, 18 months ago suddenly with a heart attack, during this awful time i had to be the strong one and get everything sorted out and it took a lot out of me mentally, as again most of my family dont show emotion in public so i didnt want to show any either, i didnt really get a chance to greive properly and have only recently started to get my head around it all.
Anyway back to my anxiety.........i have been getting random weird heart sensations for years......it feels like all the chambers in my heart are trying to beat at the same time, it only lasts a few seconds and is not painful but they are very strong and make me worried. I had them a couple of times and managed to ignore and not worry about them but after my mum died so young of a heart attack well you can imagine what i was thinking!!
I now get them a lot, i was so upset and worried that i managed to get the courage to see a doctor and i just broke down and told why i was worried. The doctor ordered a heart scan for me, and i was also wired up to a holter monitor for 24 hours, of course nothing happened during any of these procedures, i also had blood tests. All came back normal, blood fine, colestorol fine, not anemic, no diabetes etc etc. also asked to see my mums medical records incase there was anything there that could be hereditory, her records showed nothing.
Doctor has told me they are ectopic beats and i am fine. Well i dont feel fine at all. my last visit he prescribed me half inderal al tablets 80mg and told me to take one once a day which would stop the beats, and help with a bit of anxiety. once i read the leaflet and saw...........slows heart and other side effects the box remains unopened and im too scared to take them! I am meant to see him again this week as he thinks i have been taking them for two weeks but i havent so i dont know what to say when i go back.
My worst symptom which is really making me panicky is this stupid sensation i keep getting, i am sorry if i give strange explinations its just how it feels to me, i hope someone else can explain to me what this is as the doctors cant tell me anything usefull, or if anyone has the same thing i would be interested to talk to them please.
You know the feeling when your face blushes??? That quick "rush" sensation going over your skin??? I feel a sensation similar to that which is maybe slightly tingly too -wash over my upper body and head (not face) at random times, i could be watching tv perfectly relaxed and happy then whoosh!!! its very fast, just a second, i think maybe my vision blurs for that split second too. I also feel this sometimes when i am just dropping off to sleep, of course it then makes me wide awake and wondering what the hell it is for ages! It also feels a bit like that sensation you get when you go fast in a car over a hill on the road (that lurch in your stomach you feel) i get that sensation in my chest which rushes up to my head.
All this happens when im not stressed! it just happens out of the blue, i could be in the bath, at work, driving, watching tv- just random
i am so scared its unreal, i am conviced i have some disease that has been overlooked. A friend told me it was anxiety and panic attacks but im not anxious or panicky until these sensations happen, i dont hyperventilate or have a racing heart or shake/tremble etc i would say maybe the only other thing i feel often would be a bit lightheaded and a bit nauseous but thats basically it. Oh and sometimes if im in a crowded market place or where there is a lot of people i sometimes feel a bit dizzy.
i just sit and wonder if im normal or not, well im sure im not normal as not everyone i meet has these things happen on a daily basis, i know that it starting to depress me and i really want to sort it out at an early stage rather than later.
Can anyone help me please!?!? Does anyone think its some form of anxiety or are there any more tests i should insist my doctor does???
i am sorry for the long winded post, i dont even know if im in the right section of the forum or not, sorry
Linda L :blush: