SleeplessFog
27-10-09, 18:16
I went to see my therapist with who I am doing CBT with...have been for the past 5 months.
I have been trying very hard to do this without medication. I am a huge pharmacophobe. For those who don't know, I also suffer from PTSD as a result of my sister's death. She died from complications of an organ transplant after having a lung disease all of her life. She took up to 40 meds a day, and it was a lot of drugs, and a lot of those drugs made her susceptible to other stuff....so that's why I am a pharmacophobe.
Anyways, my therapist had me authorize her to talk to my GP about medication. I am so afraid of taking anything...especially since I tried Lexapro in April and it was horrible! I had hallucinations, multiple panic attacks in my sleep and a whole bunch of other crap that wasn't happening before that. I only took 1/2 of a 10mg pill too.
I am so low about myself right now....I will probably have to have a medication evaluation now. I don't want to do this with meds...I am so afraid of medication. I just had my first breakthrough (I feel) about a week ago when I was able to successfully shut down a PA while I was driving.
Someone please reassure me I can get through this...I don't want to take anything like an SSRI....not after what happened to me before. I usually don't take any medication unless someone is around to make sure I am okay. My therapist doesn't think I have depression...its just a lot of anxiety.
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I have been trying very hard to do this without medication. I am a huge pharmacophobe. For those who don't know, I also suffer from PTSD as a result of my sister's death. She died from complications of an organ transplant after having a lung disease all of her life. She took up to 40 meds a day, and it was a lot of drugs, and a lot of those drugs made her susceptible to other stuff....so that's why I am a pharmacophobe.
Anyways, my therapist had me authorize her to talk to my GP about medication. I am so afraid of taking anything...especially since I tried Lexapro in April and it was horrible! I had hallucinations, multiple panic attacks in my sleep and a whole bunch of other crap that wasn't happening before that. I only took 1/2 of a 10mg pill too.
I am so low about myself right now....I will probably have to have a medication evaluation now. I don't want to do this with meds...I am so afraid of medication. I just had my first breakthrough (I feel) about a week ago when I was able to successfully shut down a PA while I was driving.
Someone please reassure me I can get through this...I don't want to take anything like an SSRI....not after what happened to me before. I usually don't take any medication unless someone is around to make sure I am okay. My therapist doesn't think I have depression...its just a lot of anxiety.
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