littlemoomin
28-10-09, 20:54
Hello
I have read alot on this forum. It is really helpful...
Sorry then if this seems an obvious plea.
Last week I had a lightbulb moment, and diagnosed myself with OCD after something happened to me (OCD of the thoughts kind).. In the past I put my thoughts down to anxiety (went on citalopram-got better-thoughts went away for over a year)
...Then last week out of absolutely NOWHERE (so annoying!) I had the most awful thought about harming my other half. It was so disturbing, I don't know where my mind conjoured it up from... Then what happened was that I was so freaked out and upset at myself I started getting really anxious about having the thought, and for a week I have felt really upset, anxious and delicate and terrified I would do such a bad thing. It's the what if? worry, and worrying that it will be so strong I might lose the plot..
Now I don't think the stuff if I am busy, but if I am on my own with him, I start thinking about the fact I had this awful thought ( not the thought itself-does that make sense?), and its almost like an association ( triggers me thinking about it)
I am so worried I will have this forever..
Will it fade?
Will I laugh at it one day and think I was silly?
Please share your uplifiting stories about this xxxx
I have read alot on this forum. It is really helpful...
Sorry then if this seems an obvious plea.
Last week I had a lightbulb moment, and diagnosed myself with OCD after something happened to me (OCD of the thoughts kind).. In the past I put my thoughts down to anxiety (went on citalopram-got better-thoughts went away for over a year)
...Then last week out of absolutely NOWHERE (so annoying!) I had the most awful thought about harming my other half. It was so disturbing, I don't know where my mind conjoured it up from... Then what happened was that I was so freaked out and upset at myself I started getting really anxious about having the thought, and for a week I have felt really upset, anxious and delicate and terrified I would do such a bad thing. It's the what if? worry, and worrying that it will be so strong I might lose the plot..
Now I don't think the stuff if I am busy, but if I am on my own with him, I start thinking about the fact I had this awful thought ( not the thought itself-does that make sense?), and its almost like an association ( triggers me thinking about it)
I am so worried I will have this forever..
Will it fade?
Will I laugh at it one day and think I was silly?
Please share your uplifiting stories about this xxxx