MiseryIsAButterfly
30-10-09, 11:36
Hello everyone.
I am a 22 year old wife and mother to a 18 month old precious baby girl. I moved to the UK two years ago from the US to be with my husband (he is a british citizen).
I found this site a few days ago and decided to join.
I have had ocd, depression, and anxiety for many years now.
My husband suggested I get off my Prozac about 4 months ago saying it causes me to sleep too much and be like a "zombie".
I reluctantly agreed, and I fear that doing so has caught up with me.
About a week ago I was at the movie theatre and choked on a piece of popcorn. (I have been having swallowing difficulties for about 5 years now.) This sent me into a fullblown panic attack. At the time I didnt realize I was having a panic attack as it seemed very real and as if I was dying. I couldn't breathe, I was shaking, feeling dizzy, crying, etc.
Since then I have been to the emergency room about 4 times and even called an ambulance once because I thought I was having a heart attack. The doctors listened to my heart and lungs, and said everything was fine. They also did an ekg that was also fine.
I had a barium swallow test yesterday to see what is wrong with my swallowing problem but when I was in there I could not swallow the liquid, and became panicky again. I fear that perhaps I have throat cancer or something causing my swallowing problem, and sadly I guess I will not know until it is too late, because I could not do the barium swallow test.
I have lost 10 lbs in a week (which is great, since I am a pretty heavy person.), but I am very frightened something is terribly wrong. I have stopped drinking coca cola though a week ago, which could be the reason of weight loss but I dread it is something more sinister.
Every since that night at the movie theatre, I haven't felt normal again.
I still feel like I can't breathe. About a month ago the docors diagnosed me with acid reflux and I started taking the Omeprazole they prescribed me just recently. I stopped taking it because last night I couldn't feel my heart beat and was feeling dizzy. Whenever I have tried to go to sleep this past week I wake up choking for air. I can't doze off normally without stopping breathing, or I will wake up with my heart racing. I feel like I can't even function anymore! I had to give my daughter to my mother in law for a few days hoping I will pull myself together and get back to the way things use to be. Every day for the past week I have felt unable to breathe properly even though the doctors listen to my lungs and they are clear. I have been crying on and off non stop frantically, afraid of dying.
I am just an overall mess. I really don't know what to do, who to turn to.
I don't have any family or friends int his country and feel so out of place and lost.
I get really scared because my husband works everyday 9-7 and I don't like to be alone feeling this way. I am scared something horrible is going to happen to me and no one will be here to know.
I fear they will take my daughter away because of all of this. I know they must find me to be crazy going to the hospital all those times with "nothing wrong with me".
I am sorry for writing such a long introduction.
It feels nice to vent my feelings a little though.
I hope to meet people with similar problems to mine on here, and perhaps get advice on where to go from here.
Thanks for your time.
I am a 22 year old wife and mother to a 18 month old precious baby girl. I moved to the UK two years ago from the US to be with my husband (he is a british citizen).
I found this site a few days ago and decided to join.
I have had ocd, depression, and anxiety for many years now.
My husband suggested I get off my Prozac about 4 months ago saying it causes me to sleep too much and be like a "zombie".
I reluctantly agreed, and I fear that doing so has caught up with me.
About a week ago I was at the movie theatre and choked on a piece of popcorn. (I have been having swallowing difficulties for about 5 years now.) This sent me into a fullblown panic attack. At the time I didnt realize I was having a panic attack as it seemed very real and as if I was dying. I couldn't breathe, I was shaking, feeling dizzy, crying, etc.
Since then I have been to the emergency room about 4 times and even called an ambulance once because I thought I was having a heart attack. The doctors listened to my heart and lungs, and said everything was fine. They also did an ekg that was also fine.
I had a barium swallow test yesterday to see what is wrong with my swallowing problem but when I was in there I could not swallow the liquid, and became panicky again. I fear that perhaps I have throat cancer or something causing my swallowing problem, and sadly I guess I will not know until it is too late, because I could not do the barium swallow test.
I have lost 10 lbs in a week (which is great, since I am a pretty heavy person.), but I am very frightened something is terribly wrong. I have stopped drinking coca cola though a week ago, which could be the reason of weight loss but I dread it is something more sinister.
Every since that night at the movie theatre, I haven't felt normal again.
I still feel like I can't breathe. About a month ago the docors diagnosed me with acid reflux and I started taking the Omeprazole they prescribed me just recently. I stopped taking it because last night I couldn't feel my heart beat and was feeling dizzy. Whenever I have tried to go to sleep this past week I wake up choking for air. I can't doze off normally without stopping breathing, or I will wake up with my heart racing. I feel like I can't even function anymore! I had to give my daughter to my mother in law for a few days hoping I will pull myself together and get back to the way things use to be. Every day for the past week I have felt unable to breathe properly even though the doctors listen to my lungs and they are clear. I have been crying on and off non stop frantically, afraid of dying.
I am just an overall mess. I really don't know what to do, who to turn to.
I don't have any family or friends int his country and feel so out of place and lost.
I get really scared because my husband works everyday 9-7 and I don't like to be alone feeling this way. I am scared something horrible is going to happen to me and no one will be here to know.
I fear they will take my daughter away because of all of this. I know they must find me to be crazy going to the hospital all those times with "nothing wrong with me".
I am sorry for writing such a long introduction.
It feels nice to vent my feelings a little though.
I hope to meet people with similar problems to mine on here, and perhaps get advice on where to go from here.
Thanks for your time.