sue681
31-10-09, 22:06
Not been on here for a while , not because i didn't want to but my son broke my laptop !
I'm 42 single , 4 kids 22 ,17 , 15 and 12 ( 12 lives with dad) ive got no family around me and feel totally isolated. ( all my family up north) we are not that close anyway !
been on my own for nearly 5 yrs after leaving my violent controling husband ( the police helped me )
I suffer from deppression , anxiety and the last year panic attacks too !
my 15 yr old son is a hand full he drinks alcohol smokes cannabis and stays out all night oh and is always in trouble with the police !
my 22 yr old is lovely shes gong traveling soon also shes looking to leave home as shes fed up with the way my 15yr old treats her ( think shes only still at home beacause she feels for me ) my 17 he's lovely too doin well at college.my 12 yr old daughter lives with her dad ( long story ) and i have her every holidays i miss her soooooooooooo much it hurts !
I work part time and can just about manage this !
I wake up every morning with anxiety , i worry about everything, suffer from deppression which makes me stay in most of the time.I worry about going out and having panic attacks ( been in A&E twice because of them)
If i do go out which is'nt offten i binge drink, it feels good and settles me but the next day i'm in bed all day with anxitey .
I hate my life and i hate myself, i offten think what is the point of being here but would do anything stupid because of the kids !
I do help myself , go walking , gave up smoking, try eat heathy and take vitamins. I have a draw full of antidepressants but don't want to take them, i did try them once but felt numb and the house ended up in a worse mess than what it is now, oh yes because of my depression i find housework a strain i just cant be botherd with it !
sorry this has turned into abit of a novel but once again i'm alone , 22 and 17 yr old gone out ( always out ) and god knows where my 15 yr old is. i'm here watchin ex factor :wacko:...my god who ever put sheryl Cole in that ress wants sacking !
sue x x x
I'm 42 single , 4 kids 22 ,17 , 15 and 12 ( 12 lives with dad) ive got no family around me and feel totally isolated. ( all my family up north) we are not that close anyway !
been on my own for nearly 5 yrs after leaving my violent controling husband ( the police helped me )
I suffer from deppression , anxiety and the last year panic attacks too !
my 15 yr old son is a hand full he drinks alcohol smokes cannabis and stays out all night oh and is always in trouble with the police !
my 22 yr old is lovely shes gong traveling soon also shes looking to leave home as shes fed up with the way my 15yr old treats her ( think shes only still at home beacause she feels for me ) my 17 he's lovely too doin well at college.my 12 yr old daughter lives with her dad ( long story ) and i have her every holidays i miss her soooooooooooo much it hurts !
I work part time and can just about manage this !
I wake up every morning with anxiety , i worry about everything, suffer from deppression which makes me stay in most of the time.I worry about going out and having panic attacks ( been in A&E twice because of them)
If i do go out which is'nt offten i binge drink, it feels good and settles me but the next day i'm in bed all day with anxitey .
I hate my life and i hate myself, i offten think what is the point of being here but would do anything stupid because of the kids !
I do help myself , go walking , gave up smoking, try eat heathy and take vitamins. I have a draw full of antidepressants but don't want to take them, i did try them once but felt numb and the house ended up in a worse mess than what it is now, oh yes because of my depression i find housework a strain i just cant be botherd with it !
sorry this has turned into abit of a novel but once again i'm alone , 22 and 17 yr old gone out ( always out ) and god knows where my 15 yr old is. i'm here watchin ex factor :wacko:...my god who ever put sheryl Cole in that ress wants sacking !
sue x x x