Having a bad one, could do with some support

[mark1980]

I have posted recently about my problems and I thought I was getting somewhere but tonight I seem to have hit rock bottom again.

Been to see the doctor at 6ish and been having these numb/pins and needles feelings down the back of my legs (particularly the left) - the stupid thing is that this is the one thing I forgot to speak to him about. So, left the doctors and went to get the prescription and suddenly felt awful, had a spell were I went really dizzy and nearly fell over and the numbness worsened. I am now thinking I must have a brain tumour, which has been the subject of my recent worries.

I have been feeling dizzy, had fluid behind the ear which has now gone but still feeling some vertigo. Had shooting pains in my head this morning and I am sat here in pieces as it all seems to be adding up to something serious, to top it off I have been having these twitching sensations that had seemed to have given up recently. I read about someone who had a brain tumour and got this feeling when they looked at their left hand and they felt detached from it, I get this now and it petrifies me. Also been having a weird taste in my mouth, maybe from the amitriptyline though.

My girlfriend has literally had enough of this, my latest stage of health worry has been going on for over 3 weeks now, never before have I felt it so bad. I know it's worse because it's something that is wrong with my head/brain and that makes it worse and me more worried.

I just don't know what to do or who to turn to, I can't even bring myself to eat and feel so low. I feel so far past being upset and just like a zombie or something. I see the neurologist a week tomorrow and I am petrified, I keep living the moment over when they tell me I have a tumour and only months to live.

[lnew]

Hi Mark,

I'm sorry you're having a rought time. All I can say is that is does sound like most of it is down to anxiety. I'm having a pretty rought night aswell and I haven't got a partner so having to deal with this on my own which is pretty tough.

I know you will get through this latest patch, unfortunately this is just something that happens to us, at the moment it feels out of control and it feels awful.

[mark1980]

Hi Inew,

Sorry to hear you are having a bad night too and that you don't have anyone to turn to. I am finding it easier to just be on my own recently anyway as people who don't get this kind of thing just don't understand and become more frustrated.

I think the darker nights make the anxiety worse, there is something threatening about it dark, miserable, cold weather and I much prefer long summers nights when things naturally feel a little more optimistic.

[lnew]

Yeah it is a bit depressing being dark as soon as you leave work, I used to love that but now it makes me feel even lonelier.

[mark1980]

I'm really worried about these numb/tingling sensations down the back of my left leg. Anyone got any ideas? I'm not particularly anxious or worked up today but they are still there. If it weren't for these I would feel much better, always has to be something doesn't it :weep:

[mark1980]

I'm really struggling to not google this. Hoping someone had had something similar?

Had something to eat and the horrible taste in my mouth had returned.

Seriously need some reassurance, please. I'm scared witless

[tobyw]

Mark,

It could be your sciatic nerve. Its fairly easy to put your neural system under stress from a simple movement. I get alot of numbness down my legs and arms with alot of tingling. Sometimes they just go numb. You may also now be suffering more with it as it is playing on your mind, symptoms of health anxiety. Trust me, I know how your mind can go over these things. Dont google it ! It will make you more anxious. Try keep yourself busy so your mind can re focus.

[mark1980]

It may be a nerve but like with everything else, I've never experienced it before.

It seems so odd that so many new things keep coming on, I want to believe it's ok and just anxiety so much but then I am scared all these things add up to more serious stuff.

I just want to feel normal again, rather than an anxious mess.

[lynn1960]

i am also having bad time dont like the feekings they scare me trying to deal with this on my own

[mark1980]

sorry to hear that you too are suffering lynn, hope things get better.

My left leg is so tingly and slightly numb, really wish this would disappear as it makes me feel so unsettled.

[lnew]

Hi again,

Sorry you're still feeling rough. Im also still having bad time, still feel dizzy but I don't know if I'm causing it by worrying about it? Do you think we really can cause it and the solution as simple as stop worrying? Don't see it myself.

[ValleyGirl]

I've had this, tingling in leg, have also had it in left arm. Sometimes at same time, sometimes just the one. I'd say, if you suffer from panic attacks, this is what it is. I know its hard not to worry, but try and remain calm and do something to take your mind off it. I've had tingling that has lasts about 2 weeks, I was convinced I had a brain tumor, but it eventually went away.

[mark1980]

Hi again Inew, sorry your still feel rough too.

I'm not sure, it's impossible right now for me to fully believe that these symptoms are from the mind. However, there have been occasions in the past when I know I have generated feelings and symptoms that were just pure anxiety and if you believe something strongly enough I guess you eventually feel the reality of it too (if you get me:wacko: ).

Maybe in a few weeks/months I will be able to look back and see just how much I was generating these feelings from anxiety. However, right now all I can think about is seeing the neurologist in a week and finding out for sure. I have imagined the moment they tell me I have a tumour way too many times, it petrifies me. I have been through many health anxiety phases but never seen a specialist before or had it for this long.

[14dale]

Hope you get better soon i feel very rough to and cant get to sleep =/

[mark1980]

Valleygirl, hello and thank you for the reply/reassurance. I know the tingly feelings I have had from panicking and hyperventilating, numb hands for example. This feels different though as it's not an all over feeling and the sensation seems to spread down the back of my leg(s), it's worse when I am moving about and actually subsides when I rest and try to think less about it. Very confused.

I look a mess and even my parents say I look like I'm worried all the time.

[billabong56]

Sounds like forms of anixitey to me as well, I have been getting blocked ears feelings for weeks now. I have had twitchy eyebrows before as well, been little bit better the last few days myself. I have a bit of a sore throat now coming which is off course cancer of the throat. But generally I am feeling better but you never know when & why it returns, try and get to sleep if you can. Dr gave me some valium tablets the other week wich were great although I was only allowed them for 4 weeks,may be these would help you.

Billabong:doh:

[mark1980]

Indeed Billabong, I am well in need of a solid nights sleep. Doctor has prescribed me some amitriptyline to help me sleep and it seems to help.

Just sat trying to relax now but the leg feels very numb and tingly, I am looking forward to sleeping as at least then I can stop thinking about it.