Englands_Glory
26-01-04, 19:32
Hi my name is Nik.
I have been a panic attack sufferer constantly for nearly 5 years now. I was never the most confident of people untill i reached my 20's and found that i had the "gift of the gab " with the opposite sex. From then on i became much more outgoing and socialised everywhere at all times untill i met my current partner.
The attacks started a few months b4 i met this girl although they were fairly mild at first, just feeling like a nauseous ball in the pit of my stomach. But then one day when with my partner, i had a full blown attack with every symptom i have ever read about!!!
Life changed for the worse from that moment on as even though she stated that these sounded simply like panic attacks, i had never heard of them and was convinced that it was something more serious.
I was started on antidepressants and have now tried 5 or 6 different sorts suffering with the most terrible side effects each time and never wanted to leave the house.
My friends blamed my partner saying i was under the thumb, but without her i would never have made it through these difficult times.
she supported me when my family would not, they still dont understand fully what it is like for people like us and i still get accused of being lazy for not working, simply milking this unseeable illness for all it is worth.
I dont understand where these thing came from, despite having attended counceling to try to get the bottom of it.
I went from a hard working, outgoing, friendly talented rugby player to a shell of my former self. Although these days i manage to control the feelings before they become full blown most of the time, i dont seem to be able to rid myself of the anticipation of future attacks. I have to say (perhaps quite selfishly) that i feel sometimes i would rather lose a limb because at least i could just get on with the rest of my life without the fear that these things will be with me for life!!!
To all those fellow sufferers. You have my complete understanding and deepest sympathy.
Please write back and let me know that i am not on my own here with these feelings
Nik
You're here for a good time not a long time!!!
I have been a panic attack sufferer constantly for nearly 5 years now. I was never the most confident of people untill i reached my 20's and found that i had the "gift of the gab " with the opposite sex. From then on i became much more outgoing and socialised everywhere at all times untill i met my current partner.
The attacks started a few months b4 i met this girl although they were fairly mild at first, just feeling like a nauseous ball in the pit of my stomach. But then one day when with my partner, i had a full blown attack with every symptom i have ever read about!!!
Life changed for the worse from that moment on as even though she stated that these sounded simply like panic attacks, i had never heard of them and was convinced that it was something more serious.
I was started on antidepressants and have now tried 5 or 6 different sorts suffering with the most terrible side effects each time and never wanted to leave the house.
My friends blamed my partner saying i was under the thumb, but without her i would never have made it through these difficult times.
she supported me when my family would not, they still dont understand fully what it is like for people like us and i still get accused of being lazy for not working, simply milking this unseeable illness for all it is worth.
I dont understand where these thing came from, despite having attended counceling to try to get the bottom of it.
I went from a hard working, outgoing, friendly talented rugby player to a shell of my former self. Although these days i manage to control the feelings before they become full blown most of the time, i dont seem to be able to rid myself of the anticipation of future attacks. I have to say (perhaps quite selfishly) that i feel sometimes i would rather lose a limb because at least i could just get on with the rest of my life without the fear that these things will be with me for life!!!
To all those fellow sufferers. You have my complete understanding and deepest sympathy.
Please write back and let me know that i am not on my own here with these feelings
Nik
You're here for a good time not a long time!!!