harasgenster
04-11-09, 11:30
Hi
Just done something a bit silly. I ended up sleeping with someone on the weekend that I didn't want to see again. We agreed yesterday over the phone (because we'd said we'd start seeing each other) that neither of us actually wanted to get involved. I was relieved that there'd be no awkwardness as we are both comedians on the circuit and we'll no doubt bump into each other.
I had told him a show he wanted to see was sold out. This morning it appeared on my MySpace that an extra show had been added and I knew he'd be gutted if he missed it. Still half asleep I sent him a PM on Facebook that just said - new show added on this date, just thought you'd want to know, see ya.
Then I panicked. I realised there was a social implication there. I asked my mate and she said he'd think I fancy him. This hadn't even crossed my mind. I was just thinking it was a bit of a social faux pas to speak to someone after you've agreed you won't be getting involved. I don't even like this guy. He's not very nice. I just have a knee-jerk reaction to be helpful, even to people who have been unfriendly to me, and I don't think it through.
What do you think he'll take from the message? I don't want anything to do with him. I'm suddenly panicking that there's some unconscious drive in me to self-sabotage! This was very clearly a stupid thing to do!
It might be important to say that last night I found myself worrying about his welfare (he seems "troubled") despite myself - ie. wanting to "make it all better" even though I don't want to be friends with him.
What's going on? Why am I being such an idiot? I'm so embarassed about this! I want to tell my friends because I hope they'll help to calm me down but I think they'll shout at me for being so stupid.
Just done something a bit silly. I ended up sleeping with someone on the weekend that I didn't want to see again. We agreed yesterday over the phone (because we'd said we'd start seeing each other) that neither of us actually wanted to get involved. I was relieved that there'd be no awkwardness as we are both comedians on the circuit and we'll no doubt bump into each other.
I had told him a show he wanted to see was sold out. This morning it appeared on my MySpace that an extra show had been added and I knew he'd be gutted if he missed it. Still half asleep I sent him a PM on Facebook that just said - new show added on this date, just thought you'd want to know, see ya.
Then I panicked. I realised there was a social implication there. I asked my mate and she said he'd think I fancy him. This hadn't even crossed my mind. I was just thinking it was a bit of a social faux pas to speak to someone after you've agreed you won't be getting involved. I don't even like this guy. He's not very nice. I just have a knee-jerk reaction to be helpful, even to people who have been unfriendly to me, and I don't think it through.
What do you think he'll take from the message? I don't want anything to do with him. I'm suddenly panicking that there's some unconscious drive in me to self-sabotage! This was very clearly a stupid thing to do!
It might be important to say that last night I found myself worrying about his welfare (he seems "troubled") despite myself - ie. wanting to "make it all better" even though I don't want to be friends with him.
What's going on? Why am I being such an idiot? I'm so embarassed about this! I want to tell my friends because I hope they'll help to calm me down but I think they'll shout at me for being so stupid.