Fenty
06-11-09, 10:37
I am glad to have found this site. I am married aged 44 and since my last high pressure job in December 09 have lived in a constant state of fear over lack of money and cannot really cope with situations like collecting my child from school. I sit at home all day, am constantly nervous and can no longer drive as I find it too frightening.
This year I just feel worn out. I have applied for nearly 70 roles - many of them coming from calls to me but have made just 5 interviews. My husband has relied on me being a high earning breadwinner and is putting me under pressure (we are more or less on state benefits now and living in a 2 bedroom council house) as he is used to looking after our child. She is now starting school permanently. He also finally doing a job two days a week and I have pushed (filled in the application form etc) him onto an asst teaching course which will last 6 months - he is 38 and really has lived off me for the 10 yrs of our marriage.
My parents are both dead and I have limited contact with siblings - I am trying to do everything for my daughter I can, but am feeling as though we are on a slippery slope.
My mother left me a small amount of money which thankfully is invested in two small properties but my husband has a desire to live in a smart part of town and educate our daughter privately. With some of my mother's inheiritance we managed to do this for two years but we are running low. Without work, I cannot do this, and am happy with our daughter in a state school. I feel bitter that although bright he has not contributing to our household and until I pushed him had no intention of having a career, it is nearly too late now. I have got to the point of seperation twice this autumn but I know he loves me and I do not want to replicate my parents who divorced when I was 4, the same age as my daughter.
A few problems here I guess, maybe CBT may help. I have seen one psychiatrist who just listened for an hour and gave me no advice at all, so no good really.
Any thoughts?
Kind regards, Fenty.
This year I just feel worn out. I have applied for nearly 70 roles - many of them coming from calls to me but have made just 5 interviews. My husband has relied on me being a high earning breadwinner and is putting me under pressure (we are more or less on state benefits now and living in a 2 bedroom council house) as he is used to looking after our child. She is now starting school permanently. He also finally doing a job two days a week and I have pushed (filled in the application form etc) him onto an asst teaching course which will last 6 months - he is 38 and really has lived off me for the 10 yrs of our marriage.
My parents are both dead and I have limited contact with siblings - I am trying to do everything for my daughter I can, but am feeling as though we are on a slippery slope.
My mother left me a small amount of money which thankfully is invested in two small properties but my husband has a desire to live in a smart part of town and educate our daughter privately. With some of my mother's inheiritance we managed to do this for two years but we are running low. Without work, I cannot do this, and am happy with our daughter in a state school. I feel bitter that although bright he has not contributing to our household and until I pushed him had no intention of having a career, it is nearly too late now. I have got to the point of seperation twice this autumn but I know he loves me and I do not want to replicate my parents who divorced when I was 4, the same age as my daughter.
A few problems here I guess, maybe CBT may help. I have seen one psychiatrist who just listened for an hour and gave me no advice at all, so no good really.
Any thoughts?
Kind regards, Fenty.