BeadieJay
10-11-05, 22:17
I was trying to think of a really witty subject heading - but couldn't think of anything even halfway decent, so have called this "Without A Trace". It's the name of my favourite t.v. programme, but more than that, I think that if I disappeared one day, without a trace, hardly anyone would miss me. I'm agoraphobic, social phobic, travel phobic, sickness phobic, you name it I've got it phobic - and since all that began I've lost more and more friends. People just don't have the patience with me anymore, and I don't blame them for that.
Anyway, I'm here and this looks like a great forum. I've been agoraphobic for about 12 years, but I think I've had tendencies towards it ever since I was a little girl. I've been married nearly 12 years, have 2 kids aged nearly 11 and nearly 10 and all these things have had some impact in changing my life, not always for the better. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and love my kids and I wouldn't change things for any reason, but before I met hubby I was outgoing, travelled the world, had a great job, lots of friends and was always up for an adventure. Then I moved to the middle of nowhere, got married, moved house, got a new job and fell pregnant all within 3 months of each other. Suddenly I was terrified of travelling, which was a bit of a problem as the hospital was 40 minutes drive from where we live, and I had to have a c-section to give birth - getting to the hospital was more traumatic than the actual birth [:I]
Over the years it's got so bad that I hardly ever leave home, and even more rarely leave the village where I live. My husband is on extended sick leave from work because he had to become my carer as I found it harder and harder to take the kids to and from school. One day it got to much for him and he basically had a nervous breakdown. We struggle along now - he does the school run and takes the kids wherever they need to go - he does all the shopping and runs all the errands. I do the laundry, the washing up and the cleaning [8)]
I have had some triumphs this past year, but right now would be happy if I never left the house again.
Well, I hope this isn't too long an introduction or too boring - if you've read this far, thank you, and I hope to get to know some of you soon.
:)
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Fact is the worst enemy of imagination
Anyway, I'm here and this looks like a great forum. I've been agoraphobic for about 12 years, but I think I've had tendencies towards it ever since I was a little girl. I've been married nearly 12 years, have 2 kids aged nearly 11 and nearly 10 and all these things have had some impact in changing my life, not always for the better. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and love my kids and I wouldn't change things for any reason, but before I met hubby I was outgoing, travelled the world, had a great job, lots of friends and was always up for an adventure. Then I moved to the middle of nowhere, got married, moved house, got a new job and fell pregnant all within 3 months of each other. Suddenly I was terrified of travelling, which was a bit of a problem as the hospital was 40 minutes drive from where we live, and I had to have a c-section to give birth - getting to the hospital was more traumatic than the actual birth [:I]
Over the years it's got so bad that I hardly ever leave home, and even more rarely leave the village where I live. My husband is on extended sick leave from work because he had to become my carer as I found it harder and harder to take the kids to and from school. One day it got to much for him and he basically had a nervous breakdown. We struggle along now - he does the school run and takes the kids wherever they need to go - he does all the shopping and runs all the errands. I do the laundry, the washing up and the cleaning [8)]
I have had some triumphs this past year, but right now would be happy if I never left the house again.
Well, I hope this isn't too long an introduction or too boring - if you've read this far, thank you, and I hope to get to know some of you soon.
:)
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Fact is the worst enemy of imagination