Mander
13-11-09, 23:07
I've been doing better but the panic attacks are getting worse again. :(
Today I started out feeling a little bit nauseated after lunch. I had to run some errands, though, so I made myself get out of the house. I started feeling really barfy on the train into town, and by the time I started to go around the shops I just felt terrible, absolutely terrified. I just kept thinking that if I collapsed in the shops at least someone could call an ambulance, and was reciting the Lord's Prayer in my head, as the first mantra that came to mind.
Of course the fact that I was walking around the shops and getting the things on my list, not hyperventilating, and not collapsing is all evidence that I wasn't having a heart attack, which is my usual fear! After a while I calmed down, but after about an hour the panic came back. Now it's hours later and I still feel bad, though not as terrified.
Today my symptoms have been light-headness, slight pains in my chest, upper back, and arms, and a runny nose and unpleasant sore throat from the cold I seem to be getting. No doubt most of the discomfort I feel today has to do with the cold!
I just hate this. I don't even know what set me off today, really. Usually just feeling a little queasy doesn't make me panic, because it happens all the time. No idea what causes the queasiness; I haven't narrowed it down to any particular triggers except riding in a car or bus.
I don't really know what I'm asking, I just wanted to get it off my chest, I guess.
Today I started out feeling a little bit nauseated after lunch. I had to run some errands, though, so I made myself get out of the house. I started feeling really barfy on the train into town, and by the time I started to go around the shops I just felt terrible, absolutely terrified. I just kept thinking that if I collapsed in the shops at least someone could call an ambulance, and was reciting the Lord's Prayer in my head, as the first mantra that came to mind.
Of course the fact that I was walking around the shops and getting the things on my list, not hyperventilating, and not collapsing is all evidence that I wasn't having a heart attack, which is my usual fear! After a while I calmed down, but after about an hour the panic came back. Now it's hours later and I still feel bad, though not as terrified.
Today my symptoms have been light-headness, slight pains in my chest, upper back, and arms, and a runny nose and unpleasant sore throat from the cold I seem to be getting. No doubt most of the discomfort I feel today has to do with the cold!
I just hate this. I don't even know what set me off today, really. Usually just feeling a little queasy doesn't make me panic, because it happens all the time. No idea what causes the queasiness; I haven't narrowed it down to any particular triggers except riding in a car or bus.
I don't really know what I'm asking, I just wanted to get it off my chest, I guess.