ladybird64
17-11-09, 21:20
I'm having a wee bit of trouble here so I'm ignoring the inner voice that is telling me not to bother posting.
I've not had a bad week but have kind of got back into the "do I really need to go out" school of thinking, I don't want to face outdoors. I feel agitated, depressed (too much self-analysis) and most annoying of all, tearful. Lots of stuff is getting to me, really getting to me and I have got that "trapped" feeling but I don't know why.
In truth, I'm at a highly nervy level as I'm typing this because of the self-destructive thing..I feel like I don't fit in here, not really even though lots of people have helped me I feel like an outsider.
Basically, my head is buzzing with a ton and a half of negative thoughts but I know that if I take off from here (NMP), I will be sabotaging myself because of my mistrust of others. I know I can feel better with the support here..I have nowhere else to turn to.
I'm goimg to log out as it has taken me ages to build up the energy to write this, I'm going to make a coffee and come back.
Hopefully someone can reassure me. Please. Thank You x
I've not had a bad week but have kind of got back into the "do I really need to go out" school of thinking, I don't want to face outdoors. I feel agitated, depressed (too much self-analysis) and most annoying of all, tearful. Lots of stuff is getting to me, really getting to me and I have got that "trapped" feeling but I don't know why.
In truth, I'm at a highly nervy level as I'm typing this because of the self-destructive thing..I feel like I don't fit in here, not really even though lots of people have helped me I feel like an outsider.
Basically, my head is buzzing with a ton and a half of negative thoughts but I know that if I take off from here (NMP), I will be sabotaging myself because of my mistrust of others. I know I can feel better with the support here..I have nowhere else to turn to.
I'm goimg to log out as it has taken me ages to build up the energy to write this, I'm going to make a coffee and come back.
Hopefully someone can reassure me. Please. Thank You x