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18-11-09, 20:25
I had a bout with severe anxiety about two months ago when I tried to stop my anti anxiety meds which was low dose to start with. When I went to see the doctor I was in such a state of high anxiety she said it was probably anxiety about the thought of having withdrawals from the meds.
Basically what she was saying was I was scared so much that I caused severe anxiety about withdrawals I could have but never had. Recently since I have gotten back on my meds.. I have felt better(anxiety wise). Yesterday
morning I woke as usual got my breakfast and started to feel really anxious
just very anxious for no reason at all.
I decided if I got up and got busy that I would be better. I went outside to feed our dogs and horses and didn't see neither one of my dogs so I realized they would hear me feeding the horses and come. I got through feeding the horses and walked around and saw the female dog walking away from the food. I thought maybe she had been visiting the neighbors house and eaten there ..then I realized her mouth was all swollen and was bleeding severely .Also her paws were covered with blood.
I bent down to check on her and could hear her rasping for breath and the blood was coming out of her mouth. I called the doctor and they came and picked her up. Although she was stumbling around ,she wagged her tale at us and got in the vehicle ,which isn't like her at all. She laid down and i think she died that moment but the doctor was rushing her to the hospital .
We called a little later and she had died on the way .I was shocked. I asked the doctor what killed her and he wasn't sure.He said that she seemed to had trauma to the chest but didn't know and then started asking questions about anything new on our place that she was exposed to.
He also asked me about the other dog and then he said that since we had been unable to bring her since we weren't feeling good.. Kind of like the flu what symptoms we had?
Basically a long story short..She died and he wasn't sure of from a disease or getting hurt or poisoning. With all the anxiety there was yesterday ,the way she walked to the vehicle and got in with courage made me feel rather good in a way . I know this sounds strange but she was a brave dog and even to the end when she knew she was dying she wasn't afraid.
All of this could have made me really anxious yesterday and its been really really sad for all of us ,because she was the sister of the other dog and they have never been apart. Also we have had both for over four years since they were little. I tried to cry several times and felt I could but something stopped me. I am not sure what but I haven't really cried for her. Its hard to imagine our lives here without her. She was one of the real things that has helped me cope living here.
Now im feeling sad,sick,anxious and worried about her and the other dog she left behind and also worried about him getting sick or us being sick or maybe sickness from her.
The doctor just said to watch the other dog and never really said anything else to us about us being sick. Now im not sure whether to be afraid there was something wrong with her that transmitted to us or be just sad for her or be sad for the other dog or just what to be..We are having her cremated and keeping her ashes here with us. Im just as confused about how I feel as her brother feels with her not here. I don't know if he knows what happened. Its a rough day for my wife and I and also for the other animals here .They all seem to be curious as where she is.
Im also worried about something the doctor told me last visit and problems im having as well. I may post about it later but right now im so sad about the loss of Hannah..that Im really depressed..and confused..
Basically what she was saying was I was scared so much that I caused severe anxiety about withdrawals I could have but never had. Recently since I have gotten back on my meds.. I have felt better(anxiety wise). Yesterday
morning I woke as usual got my breakfast and started to feel really anxious
just very anxious for no reason at all.
I decided if I got up and got busy that I would be better. I went outside to feed our dogs and horses and didn't see neither one of my dogs so I realized they would hear me feeding the horses and come. I got through feeding the horses and walked around and saw the female dog walking away from the food. I thought maybe she had been visiting the neighbors house and eaten there ..then I realized her mouth was all swollen and was bleeding severely .Also her paws were covered with blood.
I bent down to check on her and could hear her rasping for breath and the blood was coming out of her mouth. I called the doctor and they came and picked her up. Although she was stumbling around ,she wagged her tale at us and got in the vehicle ,which isn't like her at all. She laid down and i think she died that moment but the doctor was rushing her to the hospital .
We called a little later and she had died on the way .I was shocked. I asked the doctor what killed her and he wasn't sure.He said that she seemed to had trauma to the chest but didn't know and then started asking questions about anything new on our place that she was exposed to.
He also asked me about the other dog and then he said that since we had been unable to bring her since we weren't feeling good.. Kind of like the flu what symptoms we had?
Basically a long story short..She died and he wasn't sure of from a disease or getting hurt or poisoning. With all the anxiety there was yesterday ,the way she walked to the vehicle and got in with courage made me feel rather good in a way . I know this sounds strange but she was a brave dog and even to the end when she knew she was dying she wasn't afraid.
All of this could have made me really anxious yesterday and its been really really sad for all of us ,because she was the sister of the other dog and they have never been apart. Also we have had both for over four years since they were little. I tried to cry several times and felt I could but something stopped me. I am not sure what but I haven't really cried for her. Its hard to imagine our lives here without her. She was one of the real things that has helped me cope living here.
Now im feeling sad,sick,anxious and worried about her and the other dog she left behind and also worried about him getting sick or us being sick or maybe sickness from her.
The doctor just said to watch the other dog and never really said anything else to us about us being sick. Now im not sure whether to be afraid there was something wrong with her that transmitted to us or be just sad for her or be sad for the other dog or just what to be..We are having her cremated and keeping her ashes here with us. Im just as confused about how I feel as her brother feels with her not here. I don't know if he knows what happened. Its a rough day for my wife and I and also for the other animals here .They all seem to be curious as where she is.
Im also worried about something the doctor told me last visit and problems im having as well. I may post about it later but right now im so sad about the loss of Hannah..that Im really depressed..and confused..