Jules31
27-01-04, 14:55
Hi Guys
Sorry I haven't been around since Christmas but I have been fighting with myself and the anxiety, Just before Christmas I was told I might have a vestibular disorder causing my dizziness so I've been trying to deal with that.
But if that wasn't enough to deal with since Christmas Day, my panic attacks have returned. I had six on Christmas day night one after another. I thought this was a blip but have been gradually getting worse since and all my good intentions, healthy eating, exercise etc have gone out of the window cos I feel so bad
I thought I could deal with the panic but just to show me I couldn't my symptoms have changed dramatically to the extent that I'm convincing myself that I must have some sort of neurological disorder. I had accepted before that there was nothing wrong eventually because I'd had an EEG. However I recently read an article that MRI's should be used to diagnose brain tumours not EEG's
Anyway that's by the by, I just wanted to run my symptoms by you and see if anyone else has the same.
The attacks start off really strangely because I get this feeling as though I suddenly don't know where I am and am withdrawing to myself. It feels as though my whole body is shutting down, especially my brain. It feels as though I can't think clearly but I think I still can. My head then feels a little numb and I get hot rushing feelings through my head. It feels like hot liquid pulsating through my arteries. Sometimes it goes into my mouth, arms, chest and back too. I'm guessing that this is an adrenalin rush but my brain is having a field day with what it could be. At the same time, I start to feel faint, as though I will collapse. Though if I'm honest I always think I'm going to drop dead right there. My legs go tremendously weak and I feel all off balance and as though I'm losing consciousness.Sometimes my head goes tremendously tight and other times it feels like there is pressure just on either side of it, like someone is pushing their fingers against my skull. Usually I have a hot flush too. This morning when it happened, my left arm felt weak and sometimes my left leg does too. Then of course there's the upset stomach to contend with.
The odd thing though is that I don't usually start hyperventilating until I feel like I'm collapsing and my heart rate doesn't seem to increase. In fact sometimes I feel amazingly calm if not somewhat terrified. I know this sounds strange but there just doesn't seem to be the rush of panic there.
I've really been trying to talk myself through the attacks and let the feelings wash over me but no matter what I do I can't stop them whereas I could do it quite easily in the past. It's for this reason that I'm worried I have something else wrong with me
I went to the drs a week ago but I wasn't having all these symptoms then and he said he thought I still had anxiety. The reason I did go was because I'd had a feeling of hot liquid pouring from the top of my head through my entire body together with a feeling of not knowing where I was. He said it sounded like an adrenalin rush.
Each attack can last up to an hour and even then all the symptoms don't go. Throughout the day, I feel off balance, have a headache, and get odd burning feelings over different parts of my body at different times. Sometimes I even get weird sensations in my mouth, tingling or a cool feeling like when you've just cleaned your teeth, but without the mint flavour. Then there are the occasional sharp pains in my head or feelings of warmth in a particular spot
Sorry this is so long but I really do need some friendly advice again
One of the things that scares me the most is that I had an attack the other day even after I'd taken a tranquillizer (because I knew I would be stressed in a training course)
So that's it. Anyone have any insight. I don't want to have to go back to the dr and bother him if it really is anxiety, cos I know I have to go through it on my own. It's just I didn't think my symptoms could change after two years of this nigh
Sorry I haven't been around since Christmas but I have been fighting with myself and the anxiety, Just before Christmas I was told I might have a vestibular disorder causing my dizziness so I've been trying to deal with that.
But if that wasn't enough to deal with since Christmas Day, my panic attacks have returned. I had six on Christmas day night one after another. I thought this was a blip but have been gradually getting worse since and all my good intentions, healthy eating, exercise etc have gone out of the window cos I feel so bad
I thought I could deal with the panic but just to show me I couldn't my symptoms have changed dramatically to the extent that I'm convincing myself that I must have some sort of neurological disorder. I had accepted before that there was nothing wrong eventually because I'd had an EEG. However I recently read an article that MRI's should be used to diagnose brain tumours not EEG's
Anyway that's by the by, I just wanted to run my symptoms by you and see if anyone else has the same.
The attacks start off really strangely because I get this feeling as though I suddenly don't know where I am and am withdrawing to myself. It feels as though my whole body is shutting down, especially my brain. It feels as though I can't think clearly but I think I still can. My head then feels a little numb and I get hot rushing feelings through my head. It feels like hot liquid pulsating through my arteries. Sometimes it goes into my mouth, arms, chest and back too. I'm guessing that this is an adrenalin rush but my brain is having a field day with what it could be. At the same time, I start to feel faint, as though I will collapse. Though if I'm honest I always think I'm going to drop dead right there. My legs go tremendously weak and I feel all off balance and as though I'm losing consciousness.Sometimes my head goes tremendously tight and other times it feels like there is pressure just on either side of it, like someone is pushing their fingers against my skull. Usually I have a hot flush too. This morning when it happened, my left arm felt weak and sometimes my left leg does too. Then of course there's the upset stomach to contend with.
The odd thing though is that I don't usually start hyperventilating until I feel like I'm collapsing and my heart rate doesn't seem to increase. In fact sometimes I feel amazingly calm if not somewhat terrified. I know this sounds strange but there just doesn't seem to be the rush of panic there.
I've really been trying to talk myself through the attacks and let the feelings wash over me but no matter what I do I can't stop them whereas I could do it quite easily in the past. It's for this reason that I'm worried I have something else wrong with me
I went to the drs a week ago but I wasn't having all these symptoms then and he said he thought I still had anxiety. The reason I did go was because I'd had a feeling of hot liquid pouring from the top of my head through my entire body together with a feeling of not knowing where I was. He said it sounded like an adrenalin rush.
Each attack can last up to an hour and even then all the symptoms don't go. Throughout the day, I feel off balance, have a headache, and get odd burning feelings over different parts of my body at different times. Sometimes I even get weird sensations in my mouth, tingling or a cool feeling like when you've just cleaned your teeth, but without the mint flavour. Then there are the occasional sharp pains in my head or feelings of warmth in a particular spot
Sorry this is so long but I really do need some friendly advice again
One of the things that scares me the most is that I had an attack the other day even after I'd taken a tranquillizer (because I knew I would be stressed in a training course)
So that's it. Anyone have any insight. I don't want to have to go back to the dr and bother him if it really is anxiety, cos I know I have to go through it on my own. It's just I didn't think my symptoms could change after two years of this nigh