neonpink_smurf
14-11-05, 18:58
I know it sounds like i'm always moaning or having strange problems and i'm sorry, its just this place makes me feel better, when i write down what i'm feeling it makes me feel better like some kind of release, i know ive posted a huge amount in the short amount of time i've been here..
... heres my new thoughts and wonderment..
As i said in another post i've started reading "what to say when you talk
to yourself" and it started some weird thinking and worrying (it seems like i can worry about anything), i didn't even really know why, but now i'm obsessed over how thoughts work and why some thoughts turn into actions and others are just random thoughts, like the ones people call a spike?? is that right?? or when you have a thought why do people say never mind it, its just a thought.. I'm confused why does one turn into an action and the other is unimportant! Its been really upsetting me.
I keep thinking i'm getting better but i'm still not able to let anything go!! My anxiety is weird its really just weird thoughts, i can still go out and do things and when i'm occupied its fine but i want to not think! how do i know that i'm actually thinking properly? I seem to over analyse everything and since i've realised i have anxiety i over analyse everything more in order to see if i'm gettin better and trying to compare it to how i thought before, even though i know i thought the same way before but i was more able to push things out of my mind..
sorry for babbling on, i hope someone understands my post!!
... heres my new thoughts and wonderment..
As i said in another post i've started reading "what to say when you talk
to yourself" and it started some weird thinking and worrying (it seems like i can worry about anything), i didn't even really know why, but now i'm obsessed over how thoughts work and why some thoughts turn into actions and others are just random thoughts, like the ones people call a spike?? is that right?? or when you have a thought why do people say never mind it, its just a thought.. I'm confused why does one turn into an action and the other is unimportant! Its been really upsetting me.
I keep thinking i'm getting better but i'm still not able to let anything go!! My anxiety is weird its really just weird thoughts, i can still go out and do things and when i'm occupied its fine but i want to not think! how do i know that i'm actually thinking properly? I seem to over analyse everything and since i've realised i have anxiety i over analyse everything more in order to see if i'm gettin better and trying to compare it to how i thought before, even though i know i thought the same way before but i was more able to push things out of my mind..
sorry for babbling on, i hope someone understands my post!!