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26-11-09, 04:17
Thanksgiving is the beginning of what should be the best seasons for the rest of the year until after New Years Eve, but It always makes me sad.
Over the past.. my memories of lots of aunts and uncles , my brother and mother did their best to make the family happy. Over the years they have all passed away thus making me somewhat of an orphan. I have two families of children.. five in all and three grandchildren .Most of them we haven't seen since Katrina. We all lived in New Orleans and were always together every two weeks for dinner. That ended with Katrina and our lives all separated all over the country.
My childhood was a happy time at holidays I mourn those times .. keeping the depression at bay during the times with my children growing up was hard as my mother and aunts and uncles and sibling had all passed away.. Now with my kids all over and not being able to visit. I feel sad ,I don't want to feel that way and try to do what I can to not feel that way.
In four years its been the first holiday to have a traditional Thanksgiving meal ,it has helped but I can't help but feeling emotional as the holidays come forth. I know other people have it worse much worse but Im more bothered by the feelings of depression and anxiety than I am of actually missing the older family and the children and grandchildren. The blahs just hit me and im getting anxious..
I love this time of year but always dread it ,feeling of sorrow yet of hope yet of anxious times of what the next year will bring. Also the lost of our beloved pet is bothering me tremendously .. The brother of the pet is also depressed.. He sleeps alot and acts strangely ..Im worried that maybe there is something wrong with him. I watch him day and night to make sure he is ok.. I check on the other animals..
I just want all this worry to go ..at least during the holidays.. anyone else feel this way? Michael
Over the past.. my memories of lots of aunts and uncles , my brother and mother did their best to make the family happy. Over the years they have all passed away thus making me somewhat of an orphan. I have two families of children.. five in all and three grandchildren .Most of them we haven't seen since Katrina. We all lived in New Orleans and were always together every two weeks for dinner. That ended with Katrina and our lives all separated all over the country.
My childhood was a happy time at holidays I mourn those times .. keeping the depression at bay during the times with my children growing up was hard as my mother and aunts and uncles and sibling had all passed away.. Now with my kids all over and not being able to visit. I feel sad ,I don't want to feel that way and try to do what I can to not feel that way.
In four years its been the first holiday to have a traditional Thanksgiving meal ,it has helped but I can't help but feeling emotional as the holidays come forth. I know other people have it worse much worse but Im more bothered by the feelings of depression and anxiety than I am of actually missing the older family and the children and grandchildren. The blahs just hit me and im getting anxious..
I love this time of year but always dread it ,feeling of sorrow yet of hope yet of anxious times of what the next year will bring. Also the lost of our beloved pet is bothering me tremendously .. The brother of the pet is also depressed.. He sleeps alot and acts strangely ..Im worried that maybe there is something wrong with him. I watch him day and night to make sure he is ok.. I check on the other animals..
I just want all this worry to go ..at least during the holidays.. anyone else feel this way? Michael