MissJennayee
30-11-09, 03:25
& I was doing greaaaaat for a few weeks there until a few days ago I had a panic attack while out doing errands and now I've fallen back into my old ways :weep:
Instead of googling I've always just went to message boards for people with the illness I fear, and let me tell you.. not a good idea.
New one is a spinal cord tumor which has all the same symptoms as MS ( always been scary to me ) except this one is "better" in my hypo brain - it's fatal.
It started with tingles in my left hand, then more tingles, then twitches, then buzzing, and creepy crawly sensations. When I was doing okay they vanished but of course, RETURNED and everyone including my Dr. was telling me if it was serious - it wouldn't come and go.
WELL, I was just reading a message board and some guy had a cyst in his cervical spine and he put that the tingles went away for a while? Greaaaat.
So now, I'm like what do I do? I feel trapped and my boyfriend, mother, and my brother won't even talk to me about it because they feel it's just "feeding my habit" What the hell? I'm stuck. I just don't know what to do. I know my symptoms can be anxiety related but they can also mean something awful? How are you supposed to decipher what's real and what's anxiety?
I'm tired of this :unsure:
Instead of googling I've always just went to message boards for people with the illness I fear, and let me tell you.. not a good idea.
New one is a spinal cord tumor which has all the same symptoms as MS ( always been scary to me ) except this one is "better" in my hypo brain - it's fatal.
It started with tingles in my left hand, then more tingles, then twitches, then buzzing, and creepy crawly sensations. When I was doing okay they vanished but of course, RETURNED and everyone including my Dr. was telling me if it was serious - it wouldn't come and go.
WELL, I was just reading a message board and some guy had a cyst in his cervical spine and he put that the tingles went away for a while? Greaaaat.
So now, I'm like what do I do? I feel trapped and my boyfriend, mother, and my brother won't even talk to me about it because they feel it's just "feeding my habit" What the hell? I'm stuck. I just don't know what to do. I know my symptoms can be anxiety related but they can also mean something awful? How are you supposed to decipher what's real and what's anxiety?
I'm tired of this :unsure: