BunnyMazonas
30-11-09, 18:39
Weird. I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that I had no idea HOW bad things had got until the meds started making me better. I mean, okay so I have pretty much stopped having panic and anxiety attacks at night, have not felt the need to self harm, the little voice has become a lot more quiet and I am no longer having emotional peaks and troughs.
But I'm also noticing that things I've had since I was a kid, that I can't ever remember not having, have gone away. I didn't even really notice them until they stopped being there because I was so accustomed to them. Like the little moments of irrationality where I would suddenly be VERY fearful of a person looking in through the window or some monster or that someone had broken into the house silently, or was coming up thestairs. The noises I used to hear that I always dismissed as a phantom of an overractive imagination.
If those things were symptoms of my brain issues, maybe I'm more crazy than I thought! :wacko:
But I'm also noticing that things I've had since I was a kid, that I can't ever remember not having, have gone away. I didn't even really notice them until they stopped being there because I was so accustomed to them. Like the little moments of irrationality where I would suddenly be VERY fearful of a person looking in through the window or some monster or that someone had broken into the house silently, or was coming up thestairs. The noises I used to hear that I always dismissed as a phantom of an overractive imagination.
If those things were symptoms of my brain issues, maybe I'm more crazy than I thought! :wacko: