vixstar
16-11-05, 20:38
Haven't posted on here for a while...but things are starting to get on top me again and feel like I need to get some issues off my chest.
I have been sleeping better than I was a few months ago which in nice but I am completley shattered. To the point where on Monday i broke down in tears at work, i have been so tearful recently. My boss decided that it would be good for me to take some annual leave so i am off work for the next week. I am quite worried about how I will spend the time, time off makes me anxious, i find it so difficult to relax. i feel so uncomfortable in my own body at the moment I just want to run away but I realise that I am unable to run away as everywhere I go I will be there, there is no escape from my own mind.
I am trying to remain positive, I understand that sometimes it is fine to let yourself feel low off a while. But I don't want to get beaten by the feelings of being anxious. I dont know if I am pushing myself too hard, i work 30 hours a week and I am studying at college part time. I like college as it gives me some purpose in my life.
I just feel like I will never feel good again. I am sick of this uncomfortable feeling. Recently my vision has been quite blurry. I cant really explain how I feel other than uncomfortable and I dont feel like me......
I am not sure what I am trying to say in this post really....just a general ramble really...
I hope that the time off work will give me time to relax...or at least try...am going for a haircut tomorrow and hopefully have a reiki treatment which was definitely be relaxing.....
I have been sleeping better than I was a few months ago which in nice but I am completley shattered. To the point where on Monday i broke down in tears at work, i have been so tearful recently. My boss decided that it would be good for me to take some annual leave so i am off work for the next week. I am quite worried about how I will spend the time, time off makes me anxious, i find it so difficult to relax. i feel so uncomfortable in my own body at the moment I just want to run away but I realise that I am unable to run away as everywhere I go I will be there, there is no escape from my own mind.
I am trying to remain positive, I understand that sometimes it is fine to let yourself feel low off a while. But I don't want to get beaten by the feelings of being anxious. I dont know if I am pushing myself too hard, i work 30 hours a week and I am studying at college part time. I like college as it gives me some purpose in my life.
I just feel like I will never feel good again. I am sick of this uncomfortable feeling. Recently my vision has been quite blurry. I cant really explain how I feel other than uncomfortable and I dont feel like me......
I am not sure what I am trying to say in this post really....just a general ramble really...
I hope that the time off work will give me time to relax...or at least try...am going for a haircut tomorrow and hopefully have a reiki treatment which was definitely be relaxing.....