d77
06-12-09, 18:48
Hello,
I seem to be stuck in a vicious circle of depression/anxiety, i have noticed things get progressively worse for 6months. My heart beat is always faster and i feel on edge, I cant relax at all.
The feelings of worthlessness and hating myself are overwhelming, it actually physically hurts feeling so useless and feeling I dont deserve to live. When I think like this I get angry and my anxiety gets worse, i find myself literally shaking at night and I cant do anything, I started self harming which helps at the time but the next day im horrified at what ive done and puts me in a panic again. I bought a new jacket but now I want to rip it to shreds as I believe i dont deserve it, dont deserve to eat either. I seem to feel i need to punish myself for something. Sometimess when out in the street im so paniced i just want to collapse and cry non stop, I am blowing everything out of proportion aswell, taking things people say to me personally.
When at work I put so much energy into trying not to breakdown i end up having crying sessions in the toilet. I have been prescribed Tifaxin but cant start taking it for some reason.
Can anyone identify with these feelings?
Dave
I seem to be stuck in a vicious circle of depression/anxiety, i have noticed things get progressively worse for 6months. My heart beat is always faster and i feel on edge, I cant relax at all.
The feelings of worthlessness and hating myself are overwhelming, it actually physically hurts feeling so useless and feeling I dont deserve to live. When I think like this I get angry and my anxiety gets worse, i find myself literally shaking at night and I cant do anything, I started self harming which helps at the time but the next day im horrified at what ive done and puts me in a panic again. I bought a new jacket but now I want to rip it to shreds as I believe i dont deserve it, dont deserve to eat either. I seem to feel i need to punish myself for something. Sometimess when out in the street im so paniced i just want to collapse and cry non stop, I am blowing everything out of proportion aswell, taking things people say to me personally.
When at work I put so much energy into trying not to breakdown i end up having crying sessions in the toilet. I have been prescribed Tifaxin but cant start taking it for some reason.
Can anyone identify with these feelings?
Dave